SuicideFuel Nobody ever talks to me IRL. It's as if I don't exist.

[Qech__]

Ever since I was a little kid, I never really had friends. My mother told me that I just had to go talk to other people. I never understood that logic: people have lots of conversations with the people around them all the time. Every friendship starts with a conversation, and for each conversation, there is somebody who initiates the conversation and somebody who is the recipient. So for each friendship, there is at least one person taking an active role and reaching out.

Nobody ever reached out to me.

Every single fucking day in elementary, all the kids would be off in their own cliques while I was left out. It was soul crushing, and every day I was left to wander the playgrounds praying for recess to end faster so I could go back to class and not be miserable. The few times I did make friends, they ended up being bullies that constantly made my life hell every single day. This continued all the way throughout high school until I graduated.

Now I'm in college. Wherever I take a seat during lecture, I instantly create this 10 foot moat around me where nobody fucking wants to sit. Am I really that hideous? Am I really that much of a fucking eye sore that people subconsciously decide they need to avoid me? Am I that fucking unvalued? Should I just stop existing? Would that make them feel better?

I fucking hate humans. All 8 billion people on the planet are fucking pieces of biowaste. There's no inherent value to being human. I FUCKING HATE HUMANITY. THEY ARE ABSOLUTE PIECES OF SHIT. I FUCKING HATE THEM. I REJECT BEING HUMAN.

 

[CRASH THE CUCK]

your freaky avi scare them away

 

[Spiteful Mutant]

This describes my experience almost to a T. There were maybe a total of 3 people who I got to talk to semi frequently during my time in school where respect was mutual, along with a good deal of bullying in between. Wasn't any different in college either, except for this one time some other nerdy kid decided to talk to me once since we were in the same program. This was in the summer of 2019 and I think that may have been the last positive interaction I've had with a person my age irl.

Truly, I was not made for this world. Females are repulsed by me and noone gives me the time of day. The fuck is the even the point, nigga. I'm a ghost and may as well not even exist. Each day I hope for nuclear armageddon so me and this dumbass prison planet finally dies.

 

[GloomyGhoul]

No one has ever gone out of their way to approach me. I’ve always had to approach other people. And even then, they tend to get tired of me, or I scare them away. This especially happens with foids I try to acquaint myself with. I’ve come to accept that I’m just repulsive and unworthy of human companionship

 

[sirlancelot]

Pin worthy thread

 

[Qech__]

This describes my experience almost to a T. There were maybe a total of 3 people who I got to talk to semi frequently during my time in school where respect was mutual, along with a good deal of bullying in between. Wasn't any different in college either, except for this one time some other nerdy kid decided to talk to me once since we were in the same program. This was in the summer of 2019 and I think that may have been the last positive interaction I've had with a person my age irl.

Truly, I was not made for this world. Females are repulsed by me and noone gives me the time of day. The fuck is the even the point, nigga. I'm a ghost and may as well not even exist. Each day I hope for nuclear armageddon so me and this dumbass prison planet finally dies.

Shit man, you see people having best friends all the time meanwhile your "best friend" just sees you an acquaintance.

 

[GloomyGhoul]

This describes my experience almost to a T. There were maybe a total of 3 people who I got to talk to semi frequently during my time in school where respect was mutual, along with a good deal of bullying in between. Wasn't any different in college either, except for this one time some other nerdy kid decided to talk to me once since we were in the same program. This was in the summer of 2019 and I think that may have been the last positive interaction I've had with a person my age irl.

Truly, I was not made for this world. Females are repulsed by me and noone gives me the time of day. The fuck is the even the point, nigga. I'm a ghost and may as well not even exist. Each day I hope for nuclear armageddon so me and this dumbass prison planet finally dies.

That asteroid can’t come any sooner. I long for human extinction so I can escape this fucked up world

 

[Qech__]

No one has ever gone out of their way to approach me. I’ve always had to approach other people. And even then, they tend to get tired of me, or I scare them away. This especially happens with foids I try to acquaint myself with. I’ve come to accept that I’m just repulsive and unworthy of human companionship

It's fucking cruel to see other people make friends with no effort. It's like it comes naturally to them. Meanwhile nothing we try ever fucking works. Why is this shit so difficult? Of the 8 billion people on this planet, I'm sure 99% of them have friends they treasure. If it is so easy for everyone, why is it straight up impossible for us? Are we missing something obvious? Every time I talk to somebody, they say the key to making friends is "just be nice." YOU FUCKING IMBECILES I HAVE TRIED BEING NICE TO SO MANY PEOPLE AND IT DIDN'T WORK. AND IF NOBODY INTERACTS WITH ME ANYWAY, HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO HAVE OPPORTUNITIES FOR BEING NICE ANYWAY? And even if I do reach out to the people around me, they'll just brush me away.

 

[RandomGuy]

Cliques offer a "safe space" and protection against perceived social threats, insecurity or hostile environment,
particularly in high-stress environments like prison, schools or workplaces.

 

[VλREN]

your freaky avi scare them away

 

[Super Nigger Boy]

Their personality detector must have detected that you’re a bad person

 

[Qech__]

your freaky avi scare them away

 

[Falkone]

You just described my life peoples also stay away from me i have no chance to tlk to others and have friends and my blue pilled parents always tell me i have to go out and just talk to other thats a stupid logic

 

[ItsOverMan]

This describes my experience almost to a T. There were maybe a total of 3 people who I got to talk to semi frequently during my time in school where respect was mutual, along with a good deal of bullying in between. Wasn't any different in college either, except for this one time some other nerdy kid decided to talk to me once since we were in the same program. This was in the summer of 2019 and I think that may have been the last positive interaction I've had with a person my age irl.

Truly, I was not made for this world. Females are repulsed by me and noone gives me the time of day. The fuck is the even the point, nigga. I'm a ghost and may as well not even exist. Each day I hope for nuclear armageddon so me and this dumbass prison planet finally dies.

I haven't interacted socially with anyone outside of work other than my mom since year 2000 (26 years). I'm an oldcel (over 40). Even with coworkers, the only thing I can think of is just interacting just trying to get work done, and a couple times about 20 years ago I went to lunch with female coworkers who were like 30 years older than me.

I'm an unwanted human so why would I try to socially interact? I was also one of those people where nobody ever talked to me first. I had to initiate, from what I remember.

 

[Qech__]

I haven't interacted socially with anyone outside of work other than my mom since year 2000 (26 years). I'm an oldcel (over 40). Even with coworkers, the only thing I can think of is just interacting just trying to get work done, and a couple times about 20 years ago I went to lunch with female coworkers who were like 30 years older than me.

I'm an unwanted human so why would I try to socially interact? I was also one of those people where nobody ever talked to me first. I had to initiate, from what I remember.

This is my biggest fear. I don't want to admit but deep down I have a delusional belief that I am special, that I will be saved eventually from this miserable life, that I won't grow old all alone. But with the way things are going, I don't think it's going to work out. I already missed out on my teen years. Then what, waste my 20s isolated in my room? Then my 30s? Then my youth is practically gone. I'll have wasted my youth and never got to experience what young people experience. I'll never have experienced love or going out and having fun. I don't want that that future. I'm scared.

 

[ItsOverMan]

This is my biggest fear. I don't want to admit but deep down I have a delusional belief that I am special, that I will be saved eventually from this miserable life, that I won't grow old all alone. But with the way things are going, I don't think it's going to work out. I already missed out on my teen years. Then what, waste my 20s isolated in my room? Then my 30s? Then my youth is practically gone. I'll have wasted my youth and never got to experience what young people experience. I'll never have experienced love or going out and having fun. I don't want that that future. I'm scared.

I have gone out and had fun, but by myself.

 

[YourTypicalLoner]

rael