out of all the random vtubers and teenage stars, why do you hate ado specifically?
It's a pretty dumb reason, honestly, and it just boils down to the fact that she is better than me at something (which is singing) and I am extremely
competitive. I think I wrote about it in my first 2 threads I made regarding Ado. However, something I didn't really mention in those threads, or really at all, is that I also hate her because of how successful she became for something she never rightfully earned, and at such a young age. She was successful before she even hit eighteen.
She just sung a few songs, got popular, and boom. Adored by millions, extremely rich, all while never showing your face and hiding behind an anime persona. All this praise and grandeur for someone who did nothing but be born with a good voice reminds me of how Chad lives, and that's infuriating to me. All my life I've always been below average.
- Below average looks
- Below average intelligence (~85 IQ)
- Below average height
- Below average skills
And the list goes on.
To be told that I was hard stuck on genetic limits that determined how useful of a person I was drove me mad. I couldn't handle it. To be honest, I still can't really handle it now. I saw no use in my life, and I knew it as objective fact that my life had no use. Physical aspects such as my height cursed me with every walk I took out in public, my hideous features on my face, and my horrible traits of my body. My own little sister, who I aspired to protect and love with all my heart, resented me and felt embarrassed by me.
I had no one, and no where I belonged. After seriously considering suicide, I went through a lot of phases that ended up having me adopt some pretty serious, vivid, and vital copes that I don't really want to get into, but the largest one was my new-found drive for competition and the desire & urge to win. Simply put, I completely denied the idea that genetic limits exist and decided to finally start trying to be better than other people at certain things.
I worked endlessly to surpass random people in random things. For instance, graphic design, certain games, typing speed, language learning, and so on.
Often, these people were people posting their stuff online, that would never see me competing with their skill, but I would do it regardless out of sheer contempt and hatred for that person. That hatred drives me to work hard, and that hate is what I live for. Ado sings far better than I, and so I'm currently in the process of trying to train my singing to one day surpass her skill.
I won't stop until I either succeed, or I die. I'm not saying this all as some type of 'motivational story' either, it's just my autistic and weird trait that I have.
