For a few years now I've mildly disliked myself for who I am and I wanted to be a pretty, cute girl. I wanted to be a girl and get a boyfriend. I hated this world for bringing me into this world as a boy. I'm also bi-sexual. I'm trans and I consider myself to be a girl however I don't feel it. I get mocked by others around me for "pretending" to be a girl and I start to think that maybe I really never will be one, even though I am. I look like a boy, I have male genitals, I was born as a boy and I have been told that, quite frankly, that is who I will be for the rest of my life. I want to cry a lot whenever I think about this. I want to be a princess in a faraway land and be rescued by a prince. I have had a male friend who I had feelings for before, and I was depressed and was known as the "quiet kid" in school before because I knew that he would never reciprocate my feelings. I am crying writing this. When I become old enough, I'm sort of considering going through trans-gender surgery, however I'm not too sure yet as I have heard it doesn't always end up too good. I'm sorry to those I've dissapointed.
