I must say my childhood was very carefree and happy. The first 12 years of my life I was constantly outside, playing with an autistic kid from my neighbourhood, who constantly tried to make fire and burn something down.
After that, I had 3 more really good years playing Minecraft with some online friends.
After that the depression and loneliness started and with the age of 16 I started to use Opioids. First Tilidin, than Oxycodon and after that heroin.
The opioids high will cure all of your loneliness and depression. You will feel like you are loved. The problem is that after some years you are more fucked than before.
I'm pretty sure the only solution to my drug problem would be a lovely wife and kids, as shown in films.
I know it's not possible, so I will suffer for the rest of my life by loneliness, depression and drug problems.
Right now I'm 23, so there will be at least 50 years more suffering without roping