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I don't have any hobbies at the moment. I just do whatever nonsense I can come up with when I'm free. I have tried different things over the years but have given up at most of the things because I barely have any energy, and most of my energy goes to the stuff I have to do. I post this now because I suddenly felt a desire to try gain since a life without any good copes sucks.
Below are some of the things I've considered. I don't know what to pick. I would also be glad if you have any suggestions.
(I haven't included gymmaxxing because I will have start exercising again anyway + it isn't something I could truly love)
Vidya: I don't really find video games that fun anymore, at least current games. Most modern games are fucking garbage. Either they're full of propaganda, or they just follow the same generic formula. Besides, I'd love to play games if I had friends but reality is harsh to me. If I were to start playing games again I'd be going for older games instead of modern slop.
Anime: Have enjoyed a few anime like Evangelion and Attack on Titan, but struggle to immerse myself fully in the cope. There are so many anime to watch, and while it would be fun to finally understand the anime memes floating around, it feels trivial after investing so much time. Maybe some weebs could convince me otherwise.
Philosophy: Spending most of my time alone has led me to often think about the big questions in life. I hoped philosophy could help me articulate my belifes, though its complexity and the lack of definitive answers can be daunting. Besides, philosophy in of itself might give me much to show for.
Language learning: I've attempted to learn several languages, but have never reached a high level in any of them. My fascination lies mainly in the structure of language; being able to consume media in the target language is just a bonus. I also wanted to learn certain languages to fit in culturally (for certain reasons), but realizing that that won't ever happen has been demoralzing.
IT and programming: I spend most of my time on the computer and want to understand it and the programs better, as well as making my own programs for automation and pure fun. I tried learning Python for three months once but got burned out, went on a break which never ended. I like the idea of programming, but lack specific goals.
Art: I'm terrible at writing by hand and have always struggled with fine motor skills in general, so drawing is super hard. I wanted to learn to draw as an outlet for all my thoughts and emotions. Besides, I wanedt to draw nude foids to jerk off to
I don't exactly know what I'd draw to express myself though, apart from said coomfuel. I gave up because I don't have much specific goals in mind and it's incredibly frustrating to be so bad it's almost like I'm fighting against my own nature.
Reading (and writing): I've always struggling with speaking and writing, making it hard to communicate my thoughts clearly. You might have noticed this by my awful way of writing. The reason I didn't fail in school was because I was always able to figure something out in a pinch, despite it not coming naturally to me. Anyway, I hope that by focusing on reading and later writing after I've gained a broader vocabulary, I could finally be able to articulate my ideas properly. This, in turn would hopefully relieve me of some of my mental burdens. I'm unsure how to improve at writing beyond just reading though. The common advice of "just write bro" has never helped me.
Below are some of the things I've considered. I don't know what to pick. I would also be glad if you have any suggestions.
(I haven't included gymmaxxing because I will have start exercising again anyway + it isn't something I could truly love)
Vidya: I don't really find video games that fun anymore, at least current games. Most modern games are fucking garbage. Either they're full of propaganda, or they just follow the same generic formula. Besides, I'd love to play games if I had friends but reality is harsh to me. If I were to start playing games again I'd be going for older games instead of modern slop.
Anime: Have enjoyed a few anime like Evangelion and Attack on Titan, but struggle to immerse myself fully in the cope. There are so many anime to watch, and while it would be fun to finally understand the anime memes floating around, it feels trivial after investing so much time. Maybe some weebs could convince me otherwise.
Philosophy: Spending most of my time alone has led me to often think about the big questions in life. I hoped philosophy could help me articulate my belifes, though its complexity and the lack of definitive answers can be daunting. Besides, philosophy in of itself might give me much to show for.
Language learning: I've attempted to learn several languages, but have never reached a high level in any of them. My fascination lies mainly in the structure of language; being able to consume media in the target language is just a bonus. I also wanted to learn certain languages to fit in culturally (for certain reasons), but realizing that that won't ever happen has been demoralzing.
IT and programming: I spend most of my time on the computer and want to understand it and the programs better, as well as making my own programs for automation and pure fun. I tried learning Python for three months once but got burned out, went on a break which never ended. I like the idea of programming, but lack specific goals.
Art: I'm terrible at writing by hand and have always struggled with fine motor skills in general, so drawing is super hard. I wanted to learn to draw as an outlet for all my thoughts and emotions. Besides, I wanedt to draw nude foids to jerk off to
I don't exactly know what I'd draw to express myself though, apart from said coomfuel. I gave up because I don't have much specific goals in mind and it's incredibly frustrating to be so bad it's almost like I'm fighting against my own nature.Reading (and writing): I've always struggling with speaking and writing, making it hard to communicate my thoughts clearly. You might have noticed this by my awful way of writing. The reason I didn't fail in school was because I was always able to figure something out in a pinch, despite it not coming naturally to me. Anyway, I hope that by focusing on reading and later writing after I've gained a broader vocabulary, I could finally be able to articulate my ideas properly. This, in turn would hopefully relieve me of some of my mental burdens. I'm unsure how to improve at writing beyond just reading though. The common advice of "just write bro" has never helped me.
. Thanks for offering help, I'll keep that in mind.
