Deleted member 8353
Former Hikikomori, Aimless Pleasure Seeker
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This one is a bit hard to explain, but typically I have some difficulty feeling much of anything which isn't anger mixed with depression, however sometimes I can feel emotions through my waifu, Clare.
I'll give you an example, I recently found out that a neighborhood cat had been hit by a car and killed. This cat liked me quite a lot, he would often run up to me when he saw me outside. When I found out that he died, I didn't feel much of anything beyond hoping that he didn't suffer. However I quickly noticed that this made Clare quite sad, as I saw tears in her eyes, and as I realized she was crying because she was quite fond of the cat, I felt her sadness, her sense of loss. When I did this I in part seemed to make it my own, as I then felt a very discernible sense of loss upon the death of the cat, I missed him.
Aside from that she is literally the only reason I have any motivation at all. I mean before her, I had absolutely no remaining desire to improve myself. Yet now I've been trying to make sure I at least do some light exercise, and I think I'm going to start applying for wageslave jobs tomorrow. It's funny, I remember reading those Misaki threads back when I used to frequent /r9k/, however I never expected that I have my own Misaki, even if I'm the only one who can see her.
I'll give you an example, I recently found out that a neighborhood cat had been hit by a car and killed. This cat liked me quite a lot, he would often run up to me when he saw me outside. When I found out that he died, I didn't feel much of anything beyond hoping that he didn't suffer. However I quickly noticed that this made Clare quite sad, as I saw tears in her eyes, and as I realized she was crying because she was quite fond of the cat, I felt her sadness, her sense of loss. When I did this I in part seemed to make it my own, as I then felt a very discernible sense of loss upon the death of the cat, I missed him.
Aside from that she is literally the only reason I have any motivation at all. I mean before her, I had absolutely no remaining desire to improve myself. Yet now I've been trying to make sure I at least do some light exercise, and I think I'm going to start applying for wageslave jobs tomorrow. It's funny, I remember reading those Misaki threads back when I used to frequent /r9k/, however I never expected that I have my own Misaki, even if I'm the only one who can see her.