This goes back to my junior year in HS
It also goes back to a certain classroom, which some users on here who I have trusted enough to tell about know was pretty awful.
I eventually developed a crush on this foid, face wise she was very average: She was around my height, which for some reason I found to be appealing for a few reasons. She ofc, socially mogged me, but was kind of still perceived as "weird" at least by the other popular kids.
This was during a phase in HS where I was doing my best to normiemaxx, socialmaxx, and do whatever I could to improoooove my life at the time. I mean, I was literally watching tons of redpill videos on how to be "confident" or whatever, while also jestermaxxing which honestly just made the "living meme" title I had branded to me since Freshman year more visible to everyone. Looking back, I genuinely do not know what I was even thinking half the time; I feel as if I just threw every piece of redpill-bluepill advice into some bowl & got a weird salad which ofc didn't work for me.
But anyhow, I actually had somewhat better reception from her in comparison to more or less every foid I interacted with. She just responded much better, and overall wasn't a complete bitch(in stark contrast to her two "friends"). I also was quite the Christcoper at the time, which as such made me unironically believe she was more "based n' trad" especially since she was also christian & also was a "conservative" jfl. Mang, how naive I was
I decided I was gonna ask her out, so I bought her flowers & candy for valentines day. She seemed excited, in fact ecstatic when I literally gave them to her at school(it wasn't in front of people fortunately). However, she later messaged me over Instagram DMs I was a "nice guy but she can't have a realtionship"
I literally was so depressed that weekend, I think I hardly even ate -just enough so I wasn't hungry until the next meal- which ofc made my parents angry & caused us to have some issues.
Now that I really look back, this probably was a subconscious blackpill. It in a way, was the AWALT pill which is hard as fuck to swallow, though I should have learned that the year before with another rejection.
It also goes back to a certain classroom, which some users on here who I have trusted enough to tell about know was pretty awful.
I eventually developed a crush on this foid, face wise she was very average: She was around my height, which for some reason I found to be appealing for a few reasons. She ofc, socially mogged me, but was kind of still perceived as "weird" at least by the other popular kids.
This was during a phase in HS where I was doing my best to normiemaxx, socialmaxx, and do whatever I could to improoooove my life at the time. I mean, I was literally watching tons of redpill videos on how to be "confident" or whatever, while also jestermaxxing which honestly just made the "living meme" title I had branded to me since Freshman year more visible to everyone. Looking back, I genuinely do not know what I was even thinking half the time; I feel as if I just threw every piece of redpill-bluepill advice into some bowl & got a weird salad which ofc didn't work for me.
But anyhow, I actually had somewhat better reception from her in comparison to more or less every foid I interacted with. She just responded much better, and overall wasn't a complete bitch(in stark contrast to her two "friends"
). I also was quite the Christcoper at the time, which as such made me unironically believe she was more "based n' trad" especially since she was also christian & also was a "conservative" jfl. Mang, how naive I wasI decided I was gonna ask her out, so I bought her flowers & candy for valentines day. She seemed excited, in fact ecstatic when I literally gave them to her at school(it wasn't in front of people fortunately). However, she later messaged me over Instagram DMs I was a "nice guy but she can't have a realtionship"
I literally was so depressed that weekend, I think I hardly even ate -just enough so I wasn't hungry until the next meal- which ofc made my parents angry & caused us to have some issues.
Now that I really look back, this probably was a subconscious blackpill. It in a way, was the AWALT pill which is hard as fuck to swallow, though I should have learned that the year before with another rejection.
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