Serious My suicide plans

[VλREN]

I stated a few months ago back in September that I plan on killing myself when I turn 25
Am currently 23 already and I just think it’s the most logical and dignified way to go, I want to die young and experience a death that’s under my control. I want to know my death day and how I’ll die, that’s a privilege that only suicide can give you

The problem is that I am too attached to my material possessions, if you saw my stupid day in the life post then you probably seen that custom lego WW1 book that I showed. Yeah well that’s something that’s keeping my attached to this world. There’s also a few more books that I want to complete as well. I also want to build my lego Falkland war kits one day too

But I feel like if I really wanted to I could destroy it all, that loosen my will/motivation to live by 80%. I often Remember that scene in fight club were Tyler durden destroyed the main characters material things in order to make him more low inhibition and aggressive.

I also want to die as a pure virgin, but I am not pure. I’ve been fapping since I was 12 and I’ve been viewing pornography since I was 13. I’ve seen thousands of videos/images of nudity and sexual acts. I can’t call myself pure, So I guess keeping my virginity is pointless. I feel so disgusted by this fact.

But what kinda foid will I even lose it too? Right now currently it’s next to impossible, especially if it’s a love based relationship. A romantic relationship isn’t going to happen in my life especially if I plan I killing myself in two years. I also don’t want lose it to a whore, I just can’t. It’s such a strange paradox.

But in all honesty the only woman that I want to lose my virginity to is Jill Valentine, so I guess with that I’ll die a virgin

Am also afraid that even if I destroy everything that’s keeping me going that My stupid survival instincts will kick in, that’s my biggest fear man. Getting cucked by your brains stupid instincts, it’s a literal reminder that nature owns your body not you. I’ll probably have to get drunk for the first time and maybe take some meds that will kill my fear

Also I will not harm anyone during my suicide, I plan on committing suicide by cop. But I am just fucking scared that I’ll survive.

But this is just some stuff that I am considering at the moment, mostly just vague plans and outlines. I should probably start writing stuff down and create some sort of checklist. I just fucking hope that this isn’t just another mental masturbation thread.

But yeah everyday Is the same and over time it only gets worse, I remember feeling miserable when I 18/19 before I joined but now it’s even more worse then before. What the hell am I going to do if I keep living and eventually turn 30?

Despite what the media/gov/pill sells men tell you, there’s no cure for this stuff

You looked into the dead emotionless eyes of reality
It’s too late now
You joined this site, you spent three years of your most valued years here
There’s no turning back

View: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=byfjMHs6II0&pp=ygURYWJhbmRvbmVkIGFuZ3Vpc2g%3D

 

[fastnbulbous]

It's brutal brother, i am 25 and i don't really want to die yet but i understand perfectly why you would this. Life will never get better as an incel.

 

[WhereIsHamudi]

I'm in a similar position as you but im already 25. I found out about blackpill at 23. My plan is simply death by hanging.
I lost my virginity to hookers but its fake sex since you have to wear condom and no kissing and so on. But it's still worth it I would say because I got to touch some nice big bootys.
The longer you think about committing suicide the more you make peace with it. I started thinking about it a year ago and with every passing day its gets easier to accept death.
My only real attachement to this world are video games and food. I still have some money left from part time jobs so I think I'll do it once I've depleted those funds.
The social isolation and lack of affection rots your brain until you can no longer put up any effort to keep living. It's just depression.

 

[Beck]

im livin for the copes man

but do what you gotta do to keep sane

 

[CerebralServant]

I don't know you personally, so this might seem banal, but don't do it. I get it if you do, though, if you can, try and find a cope you care about more than finding a woman. For me, it was getting into philosophy, so I'd recommend trying that out. I'm 24 now, and I had the same idea you did a few years ago, but here I am still. Life still sucks, but it has gotten better, even if just a little.

 

[VλREN]

The social isolation and lack of affection rots your brain until you can no longer put up any effort to keep living. It's just depression.

Yeah that’s what am experiencing

It’s like am already in prison

 

[VλREN]

I don't know you personally, so this might seem banal, but don't do it. I get it if you do, though, if you can, try and find a cope you care about more than finding a woman. For me, it was getting into philosophy, so I'd recommend trying that out. I'm 24 now, and I had the same idea you did a few years ago, but here I am still. Life still sucks, but it has gotten better, even if just a little.

Am not becoming a 30 year old man with the mental maturity of 13 year old, this existence has to end soon

 

[VλREN]

Am in a really fucked up position right now

 

[VλREN]

Am also just over thinking the suicide by cop method, like the ballistics and damage done to my body

Like am worried about how the bullets will enter into my body.

What if I am shot in the mouth and the bullet knocks all my teeth out but I survive completely paralyzed do to it hitting my spine

what if I get shot in the hand and the bullet destroys all my fingers and splits my arm in half,

with if I am shot in the gut and survive and now I have to go to prison with a colostomy bag

What if I am shot in the dick and the bullet completely destroys it

I don’t know I just hope that they mag dump my chest and that’ll be it

 

[ColderManTruce]

Troon behaviour.

Not worth it brocel, take the whitepill

As I always say- a cope a day keeps the rope away.

 

[D. B. Gooner]

Why suicide by cop, could easily be botched.

 

[VλREN]

Troon behaviour.

Not worth it brocel, take the whitepill

As I always say- a cope a day keeps the rope away.

Bullshit, suicide is the cure to a pointless existence

Why suicide by cop, could easily be botched.

Not from what I’ve seen, but yeah it’s a fear of mine

 

[ColderManTruce]

Bullshit, suicide is the cure to a pointless existence

So your existence is on the same level of a tranny?

No. It is not.
I implore you to seek more copes

 

[Dead End]

So your existence is on the same level of a tranny?

Association fallacy. Just because trannies kill themselves doesn't make suicide an inherently bad option.

Bullshit, suicide is the cure to a pointless existence

I agree.

 

[VλREN]

So your existence is on the same level of a tranny?

No. It is not.
I implore you to seek more copes

Yeah keep coping until am in my 30s and then my parents die and then am homeless

Oops there goes my hedonistic little life straight into the flames of reality and time

 

[ColderManTruce]

Association fallacy. Just because trannies kill themselves doesn't make suicide an inherently bad option.

Unless there's absolutely no other cope left, then that's the only cure to a pointless existence. Atleast for me

 

[ColderManTruce]

Yeah keep coping until am in my 30s and then my parents die and then am homeless

Oops there goes my hedonistic little life straight into the flames of reality and time

Wagecuck for a while and then you'll have neetbuxx

 

[Dead End]

Unless there's absolutely no other cope left, then that's the only cure to a pointless existence. Atleast for me

I agree that if you can find sufficient happiness in your copes, you shouldn't kill yourself.

Personally, I am at the stage where nothing in my life consistently helps me cope. Most things are just not enjoyable for me. On the few occasions I do feel enjoyment, that feeling is extremely fleeting. I feel miserable and don't forsee change, therefore I view suicide as a desirable outcome in comparison to continuing to live.

Issue is I'm cucked by my survival instincts and can't actually bring myself to die, at least not yet.

 

[ColderManTruce]

I agree that if you can find sufficient happiness in your copes, you shouldn't kill yourself.

Personally, I am at the stage where nothing in my life consistently helps me cope. Most things are just not enjoyable for me. On the few occasions I do feel enjoyment, that feeling is extremely fleeting. I feel miserable and don't forsee change, therefore I view suicide as a desirable outcome in comparison to continuing to live.

Issue is I'm cucked by my survival instincts and can't actually bring myself to die, at least not yet.

I've considered suicide earlier at some point of time in my life. But I think my copes suffice me for now. Maybe they will atleast last for a while until I grow numb to them. Although a few copes of mine have already feel monotonous

Even if they're inconsistent, find more copes, never run out of them, that's what I've learned so far, that's what's keeping me at bay for now

 

[Dead End]

Even if they're inconsistent, find more copes, never run out of them, that's what I've learned so far, that's what's keeping me at bay for now

How? Everything I try is so boring to me. I don't even have the energy to do anything that isn't the bare minimum anymore. I feel completely stuck. I feel flat and empty constantly. I really don't care about anything in my life. Everything seems unappealing and draining.

 

[Ricecel Sungnodius]

Please don't commit suicide. It's better to have you here.

 

[VλREN]

Please don't commit suicide. It's better to have you here.

We all leave this form someday

Nobody’s going to post forever

 

[ColderManTruce]

How? Everything I try is so boring to me. I don't even have the energy to do anything that isn't the bare minimum anymore. I feel completely stuck. I feel flat and empty constantly. I really don't care about anything in my life. Everything seems unappealing and draining.

If you're a neet then vidya,movies, anime, etc. are your best options. They're never ending.
If you wagecuck then spend more time after you are done with work.

 

[Dead End]

If you're a neet then vidya,movies, anime, etc. are your best options. They're never ending.
If you wagecuck then spend more time after you are done with work.

Borderline NEET in that I only work a few hrs/week. Video games are no longer enjoyable for me. I have never really liked fiction, so movies, anime, TV have never been effective copes for me.

 

[Ricecel Sungnodius]

We all leave this form someday

Nobody’s going to post forever

@Animecel2D Thoughts?

 

[Animecel2D]

@Animecel2D Thoughts?

Still waiting for that day

I’m sure it will come. Any moment now. Any moment…

 

[DoomThreeKoala]

Troon behaviour.

Not worth it brocel, take the whitepill

As I always say- a cope a day keeps the rope away.

 

[ColderManTruce]

Borderline NEET in that I only work a few hrs/week. Video games are no longer enjoyable for me. I have never really liked fiction, so movies, anime, TV have never been effective copes for me.

Brutal, atleast try comics and manga

 

[Dead End]

Brutal, atleast try comics and manga

I have tried in the past. Fiction just never appealed to me much, I don't know why. I feel like I zone out when watching or reading something because it's just disinteresting. I can't follow plot points or characters and it rarely feels rewarding or interesting to me. I don't know why I'm like this.

 

[ColderManTruce]

I have tried in the past. Fiction just never appealed to me much, I don't know why. I feel like I zone out when watching or reading something because it's just disinteresting. I can't follow plot points or characters and it rarely feels rewarding or interesting to me. I don't know why I'm like this.

Prolly the derealisation hits hard. More effective copes would be none other than vidya then, I won't force you to like fiction but have you never consumed a part of it before?

 

[Dead End]

Prolly the derealisation hits hard.

This isn't even a recent thing, I was never really engaged much growing up either

More effective copes would be none other than vidya then, I won't force you to like fiction but have you never consumed a part of it before?

Yes, as I said I have tried with fiction. I've consumed a fair few movies with my parents, read as a kid, tried out some shows, but never really enjoyed it that much. I guess I just don't see what makes fiction appealing and never really have.

 

[ColderManTruce]

This isn't even a recent thing, I was never really engaged much growing up either

What bout vidya fiction

Yes, as I said I have tried with fiction. I've consumed a fair few movies with my parents, read as a kid, tried out some shows, but never really enjoyed it that much. I guess I just don't see what makes fiction appealing and never really have.

Fair enough.

 

[Dead End]

What bout vidya fiction

It's the same, I'm just mostly disinterested really. I tried RDR 1&2 and while I enjoyed their open world, I just couldn't keep track of the story or characters and just really didn't care. Same thing with Yakuza games. They feel like chores to play more than anything when I'm trying to engage with the story.

 

[ColderManTruce]

It's the same, I'm just mostly disinterested really. I tried RDR 1&2 and while I enjoyed their open world, I just couldn't keep track of the story or characters and just really didn't care. Same thing with Yakuza games. They feel like chores to play more than anything when I'm trying to engage with the story.

Try games with no storyline.

Most online shooting games don't have huge chunks of fiction

 

[Dead End]

Try games with no storyline.

Most online shooting games don't have huge chunks of fiction

Yes, I've played plenty of games with no story and they used to be enjoyable, but I just find everything boring now. I have no motivation to engage with anything and every hobbie seems to take an immense amount of mental effort to perform.

 

[UglyVirgin]

have you considered helium method as roping method

 

[Max Doltman]

you sound retarded

 

[ColderManTruce]

Yes, I've played plenty of games with no story and they used to be enjoyable, but I just find everything boring now. I have no motivation to engage with anything and every hobbie seems to take an immense amount of mental effort to perform.

Brutality

 

[Cuckoja]

have you considered helium method as roping method

Is that a thing? Imagine dying while sounding like a chipmunk

 

[Wither]

Is that a thing? Imagine dying while sounding like a chipmunk

lmfao

 

[VanGobbel]

I stated a few months ago back in September that I plan on killing myself when I turn 25
Am currently 23 already and I just think it’s the most logical and dignified way to go, I want to die young and experience a death that’s under my control. I want to know my death day and how I’ll die, that’s a privilege that only suicide can give you

The problem is that I am too attached to my material possessions, if you saw my stupid day in the life post then you probably seen that custom lego WW1 book that I showed. Yeah well that’s something that’s keeping my attached to this world. There’s also a few more books that I want to complete as well. I also want to build my lego Falkland war kits one day too

But I feel like if I really wanted to I could destroy it all, that loosen my will/motivation to live by 80%. I often Remember that scene in fight club were Tyler durden destroyed the main characters material things in order to make him more low inhibition and aggressive.

I also want to die as a pure virgin, but I am not pure. I’ve been fapping since I was 12 and I’ve been viewing pornography since I was 13. I’ve seen thousands of videos/images of nudity and sexual acts. I can’t call myself pure, So I guess keeping my virginity is pointless. I feel so disgusted by this fact.

But what kinda foid will I even lose it too? Right now currently it’s next to impossible, especially if it’s a love based relationship. A romantic relationship isn’t going to happen in my life especially if I plan I killing myself in two years. I also don’t want lose it to a whore, I just can’t. It’s such a strange paradox.

But in all honesty the only woman that I want to lose my virginity to is Jill Valentine, so I guess with that I’ll die a virgin

Am also afraid that even if I destroy everything that’s keeping me going that My stupid survival instincts will kick in, that’s my biggest fear man. Getting cucked by your brains stupid instincts, it’s a literal reminder that nature owns your body not you. I’ll probably have to get drunk for the first time and maybe take some meds that will kill my fear

Also I will not harm anyone during my suicide, I plan on committing suicide by cop. But I am just fucking scared that I’ll survive.

But this is just some stuff that I am considering at the moment, mostly just vague plans and outlines. I should probably start writing stuff down and create some sort of checklist. I just fucking hope that this isn’t just another mental masturbation thread.

But yeah everyday Is the same and over time it only gets worse, I remember feeling miserable when I 18/19 before I joined but now it’s even more worse then before. What the hell am I going to do if I keep living and eventually turn 30?

Despite what the media/gov/pill sells men tell you, there’s no cure for this stuff

You looked into the dead emotionless eyes of reality
It’s too late now
You joined this site, you spent three years of your most valued years here
There’s no turning back

View: https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=byfjMHs6II0&pp=ygURYWJhbmRvbmVkIGFuZ3Vpc2g%3D

You still here? Commit harakiri together with Jill Valentine

 

[itstoolate]

Don't do it. There's no point when you're young. Spend a couple of years making some money and then go to Thailand or wherever, and have some experiences with girls. Then you can kill yourself at 30.

 

[VλREN]

You still here? Commit harakiri together with Jill Valentine

You predicted the future

have you considered helium method as roping method

Ehh I don’t know doesn’t sit right with me

I want something more dramatic