Idk how this came up (guess I was depressed and venting to my parents) and my mom said she sometimes wonders if I’d be happy if I were gay. Apparently she said that maybe gay men would be more okay with my more shy, awkward personality than women would be. Also that gay men are more forgiving on less attractive dudes. My parents both know that one of the main sources of my depression is over me never having a girlfriend.
Of course she keeps insisting on giving me dating advice (which I clearly don’t want as she’s a woman in her 60s, she doesn’t know shit). Today she was confused as to why I didn’t want to be social with some cute female cashier at Staples (had to drive her there to get something). She questioned why I didn’t “flirt”. I didn’t get into it because I didn’t want to argue but I was rather annoyed as I didn’t see any reason to banter with her. Obviously I’d have no chance with her and while she seemed friendly she didn’t pay any sort of attention to me. She keeps preaching that I should develop “game” (not in PUA sense of course she doesn’t know about that shit) as though I can just get girls by being good at talking. I’m not that good at talking to people (though I’ve bantered with people and make them laugh on occasion) but it just doesn’t work that way. She’s so bluepilled (expected for a woman, especially a middle aged one) that it’s annoying. I know she means well, I know she wants me to find happiness, but I would just rather her not ever bring up that shit.
Anyway idk how to feel about this. Either happy she feels for me and is concerned. Or mad about her thinking I’d be happier if I was gay. Would I be happier if I was gay? Maybe, but I’ll never know. Can’t exactly start finding dudes attractive.
Of course she keeps insisting on giving me dating advice (which I clearly don’t want as she’s a woman in her 60s, she doesn’t know shit). Today she was confused as to why I didn’t want to be social with some cute female cashier at Staples (had to drive her there to get something). She questioned why I didn’t “flirt”. I didn’t get into it because I didn’t want to argue but I was rather annoyed as I didn’t see any reason to banter with her. Obviously I’d have no chance with her and while she seemed friendly she didn’t pay any sort of attention to me. She keeps preaching that I should develop “game” (not in PUA sense of course she doesn’t know about that shit) as though I can just get girls by being good at talking. I’m not that good at talking to people (though I’ve bantered with people and make them laugh on occasion) but it just doesn’t work that way. She’s so bluepilled (expected for a woman, especially a middle aged one) that it’s annoying. I know she means well, I know she wants me to find happiness, but I would just rather her not ever bring up that shit.
Anyway idk how to feel about this. Either happy she feels for me and is concerned. Or mad about her thinking I’d be happier if I was gay. Would I be happier if I was gay? Maybe, but I’ll never know. Can’t exactly start finding dudes attractive.
