It's Over My Problem Is That I Want The Patient's Life (With The Normal Person Status)

[tulasdanslos]

Abstract: I have Asperger's Syndrome in addition to being stupid and ugly. I want to be taken care of because I'm a useless sack of shit who can't fend for myself.

• Diet: I can't cook at all. This is bad because all the shit I eat is super processed stuff. When I was at the hospital I didn't die, I ate well enough and I lost weight.
• Exercise: I loathe exercise. I don't do any at all- except if you count walking as exercise. But I don't, cause I'm never tired tired after I walk my routine track. If I were a patient I would be forced to exercise, at least cardio which is better than nothing at all.
• Clothes: I loathe the whole idea of clothes. It never clicked with me other than the basic idea of hiding my subhuman body shape, plus there were some kinds of clothes that I fucking hated the feel of on my skin. To think that when my parents die I'll have to do the laundry, sus out which clothes of mine are dirty and eventually buy new clothes is serious suicide fuel.
• Hygiene: I can't even tell when I'm smelling like shit. I just had to figure out the rule that every two days I probably smell like shit and have to shower. Patients in the hospital are made to shower every day.
• Sleep: I want to sleep at least 9 hours every day. I can get this right now because I'm NEETing but eventually I'm gonna hit a breaking point where I have to get a job and because I don't have a license because I'm fucking retarded I'll have to do a 4 hour commute total every day and it's gonna affect my sleep. You guessed it, patients in the hospital don't worry about sleep because sleep is very fucking important and they can sleep their natural hours.
• Sex: There are countries in Europe where disabled people have trained escorts perform their natural obligations. Because I'm in this forum I feel entitled to some form of sex and I consider myself disabled because normies fucking hate my guts and then discriminate against me for not getting a job or whatever.
• Copes: The only bullet point where I don't want the patient life. Patients are very limited in their copes, they can't have phones nor PCs because they're le dangerous for le mental health (BS). This is why I say I want the "normal person" status in the title, because I need that halo in order not to be bored out of my mind the whole day.

Basically, I feel entitled to a super NEET life. The only way I could realistically be fulfilled is if I had NEETbux and found a middle class or better (jfl) big breasted (lol look at the beggar choosing) mommy gf (rofl femdom cuklo fantasy).

tl;dr: I want to live out my life as close to a terminal illness patient as possible, without being admitted to a hospital. This lifestyle is just as rare as being born a noble. It never began.

 

[ZtarvationArmy]

I want to be taken care of because I'm a useless sack of shit who can't fend for myself.

I often worry about my parents dying because of this. It's a recurrent thought and every few days I tell them "it will be a shame when you're dead and gone." Also because then I'll have nobody in the world to talk to.

 

[tulasdanslos]

I also just see less and less reasons to get up in the morning. Like, why live? At first I thought living out of spite would work for me, but as I get anhedonia I can rationally assess that I will not give a shit about my enemies and the people I inconvenience in 5 years time, let alone the rest of my life.