Even if they wouldn't say it to my face, albeit not being completely direct about it, the way they sometimes look at me says it all.
I was the straight A student and the gifted kid who did martial arts and broke into the best uni in the country and studies for free essentially. The kid who made them proud.
But now I'm someb 21 yo dude who goes to uni, comes home, has essentially no real friends and no fucking gf. The guy who has a license but doesn't even drive. Never gone out with my friends anywhere because my friends where mostly like me: outcasts
My father was lecturing me last night and said that I look homeless with the greasy long hair. Seeing me like this hurts them but not even they know what I should do to get out of this. My father said I should be more disciplined and my mother said I should love myself more. And they're right, I should. But I don't think it will help with many of my issues. Sometimes I think of throwing this life but then if I did, it would have a permanent effect on them and my sister. I can't kms. Have no choice but to keep going somehow.
I was the straight A student and the gifted kid who did martial arts and broke into the best uni in the country and studies for free essentially. The kid who made them proud.
But now I'm someb 21 yo dude who goes to uni, comes home, has essentially no real friends and no fucking gf. The guy who has a license but doesn't even drive. Never gone out with my friends anywhere because my friends where mostly like me: outcasts
My father was lecturing me last night and said that I look homeless with the greasy long hair. Seeing me like this hurts them but not even they know what I should do to get out of this. My father said I should be more disciplined and my mother said I should love myself more. And they're right, I should. But I don't think it will help with many of my issues. Sometimes I think of throwing this life but then if I did, it would have a permanent effect on them and my sister. I can't kms. Have no choice but to keep going somehow.
