I know it sounds ridiculous, but let me elaborate on this.
At the age of 12, as a young child, I already had the feeling of constantly having a bad odor around me. As if horrendously bad smelling molecules were diffusing through my skin creating an unbearable aura around me making people unable to stay in my proximity.
This feeling only aggravated ever since.
Never have I been more observing about the movements of other people. I feel like everybody is either scratching their nose in my proximity or simply sniffing loudly.
There are countless occasions where I've noticed people scratching their noses, sniffing or moving away from me even though me leaving my basement is an event that rarely occurs.
At the beginning of this school year, a female classmate was sitting next to me. Suddenly, a month later, there's one empty seat between us. She moved away from me. Most likely due to my bad odor, that I am by the way not in control of. I shower every single day. My clothes are neat. I brush my teeth, floss, use a tongue scraper and a mouth wash.
Despite all the efforts I've made, I still notice people's gestures of disgust every single day I leave my basement.
This fear, or actually the fact, of stinking has prevented me from being social. In fact, my social inhibitions were increased and my anxiety aggravated.
To name three major instances that backed up my suspicions were the following:
-It's sixth grade, and I have the opportunity to meet a girl. I refuse because I fear disgusting her with my subhuman odor that my skin is ejecting.
-It's ninth grade. It's French class, I'm sitting next to two girls. I try to limit my movements, keep my arms closed and my mouth shut at all times to not disseminate the smell. Nevertheless, the girl talks to the teacher asking her to move away from me.
-It's tenth grade. I'm meeting a girl on new years eve. I don't talk. I don't go near her. I'm afraid of stinking. She sends me home because of the awkwardness. Later she tells me I stink. This was the day I knew my suspicions were really true.
-Now, it's twelfth grade. The teacher enters the room and says it's smelling like a rotten grandma in there and opens the windows.
I'm writing an exam. The teacher goes through the rows and sniffs whenever he passes my table. He doesn't do that when passing the others.
I'm standing alone in the hall, far away from others. A girl comes close to me. She rubs her nose, sniffs and has a face of disgust.
Literally everybody scratches the nose or sniffs around me.
I swear it is a huge problem and a crucial contributing aspect to my inceldom. It sounds ridiculous, yet it is a huge issue that I can't get rid of.
Does anyone here have similar experiences?
Anyone?
It's extremely uncomfortable to post this but I'll do it anyway because I'm really curious if I am alone with this problem.
At the age of 12, as a young child, I already had the feeling of constantly having a bad odor around me. As if horrendously bad smelling molecules were diffusing through my skin creating an unbearable aura around me making people unable to stay in my proximity.
This feeling only aggravated ever since.
Never have I been more observing about the movements of other people. I feel like everybody is either scratching their nose in my proximity or simply sniffing loudly.
There are countless occasions where I've noticed people scratching their noses, sniffing or moving away from me even though me leaving my basement is an event that rarely occurs.
At the beginning of this school year, a female classmate was sitting next to me. Suddenly, a month later, there's one empty seat between us. She moved away from me. Most likely due to my bad odor, that I am by the way not in control of. I shower every single day. My clothes are neat. I brush my teeth, floss, use a tongue scraper and a mouth wash.
Despite all the efforts I've made, I still notice people's gestures of disgust every single day I leave my basement.
This fear, or actually the fact, of stinking has prevented me from being social. In fact, my social inhibitions were increased and my anxiety aggravated.
To name three major instances that backed up my suspicions were the following:
-It's sixth grade, and I have the opportunity to meet a girl. I refuse because I fear disgusting her with my subhuman odor that my skin is ejecting.
-It's ninth grade. It's French class, I'm sitting next to two girls. I try to limit my movements, keep my arms closed and my mouth shut at all times to not disseminate the smell. Nevertheless, the girl talks to the teacher asking her to move away from me.
-It's tenth grade. I'm meeting a girl on new years eve. I don't talk. I don't go near her. I'm afraid of stinking. She sends me home because of the awkwardness. Later she tells me I stink. This was the day I knew my suspicions were really true.
-Now, it's twelfth grade. The teacher enters the room and says it's smelling like a rotten grandma in there and opens the windows.
I'm writing an exam. The teacher goes through the rows and sniffs whenever he passes my table. He doesn't do that when passing the others.
I'm standing alone in the hall, far away from others. A girl comes close to me. She rubs her nose, sniffs and has a face of disgust.
Literally everybody scratches the nose or sniffs around me.
I swear it is a huge problem and a crucial contributing aspect to my inceldom. It sounds ridiculous, yet it is a huge issue that I can't get rid of.
Does anyone here have similar experiences?
Anyone?
It's extremely uncomfortable to post this but I'll do it anyway because I'm really curious if I am alone with this problem.
