theres a girl in my college who im currently obsessed with i dont know anything abt her not even her name shes just attractive and dresses cutely. (she wears like gothic black victorian dresses not just some makeupfrauded "goth girl" poser) i always stare at her when i see her and shes always with her friend who dresses like her but in pink rather than black. shes not some stacy both of them are fairly average but for some reason im obsessed with her. i was talking to my mother and it slipped into the conversation about how i see and i mentioned i want to talk to her but never do and my mother said "you should thats the type of girl you should bring home i dont know why you dont just get a girlfriend" shes pestered me all my life about girls and one time she saw me with a girl some years ago i was being some simp orbiter thinking i had a chance and in reality i was just some "gay bestie" to her and my mum saw this and pestered me about it saying "i cant believe youre finally dating" and told my ENTIRE family about it. obviously nothing came of it and i was rejected multiple times and i stopped talking and she made my dad ask abt her and i told him "she was just boring i wasnt interested" which she at the time was moody daily about it. after i told her about this current girl at college i didnt talk to she just said "im so sad you dont even try" and was in a low mood for the rest of the conversation. ive even overheard her telling my sister that she thinks ill never get a gf. she doesnt think im gay shes just dissapointed and knows i have no chance but thinks its my fault rather than my looks.
i feel like such a subhuman garbage piece of shit and i could never tell her the real reason to why ill never get a girl because she WILL accuse me of being an "incel" or mysoginist shes asked me why ive never had a girlfriend and i always just tell her no girls interest me which gets her angry at me jfl. only person i could tell about this is my father who complains to me how women have high standards (hes never been with anyone since my mom which is about 18 years) but he also is dissapointed in me. im nothing but a failure to my whole family and i cannot stand this life anymore
i feel like such a subhuman garbage piece of shit and i could never tell her the real reason to why ill never get a girl because she WILL accuse me of being an "incel" or mysoginist shes asked me why ive never had a girlfriend and i always just tell her no girls interest me which gets her angry at me jfl. only person i could tell about this is my father who complains to me how women have high standards (hes never been with anyone since my mom which is about 18 years) but he also is dissapointed in me. im nothing but a failure to my whole family and i cannot stand this life anymore
