I guess I deserve to be insulted by my mom for what i said about her being a golddigger but this one hurt since she is basically saying she ALWAYS disliked me, which is true. Even before i knew what an incel was she always said i was a weirdo and a freak which i was but still. I was bullied a lot and i tried fighting back but then my mom said i was a monster for lowering myself to their level, and i know on a subconscious level that's because she thinks i deserve to be bullied and always did. I mean why would a mother never say anything when their kid is being hit in front of everyone on the playground but yell whenever i hit back, at first i thought it was because she didn't want to try to control someone elses kid but there's more to it. She always thought i was pathetic even in elementary school when she was a volunteer watch and that's why she would let other kids bully me but never let me fight back, she thought i deserved it for being a genetic waste unlike my brother (i always had some problems socially and my face has always been noticeably asymmetrical)
