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She was so pissed about me sleeping all day and not doing shit. She thinks it’s my fault that I’m miserable. She said that I am wasting my youth (she’s right). But if I am in fact trucel and it’s over for me, then there’s no point in “getting out in the world” is there? I just feel so deep down the negativity rabbit hole. I’ve been planning my 100% guaranteed death rope method. Now I’m not sure, I am just tired. The pain from touch starvation has been really effecting me lately, like it just deadass feels so awful to be like “welp I will never get a girlfriend or any affection ever”. Maybe I would feel better with an escort since I am craving human touch so bad? I don’t know how I’m going to get out of this. I keep putting off getting a job because I feel like I’d be more miserable with a job than simply LDAR/NEET. But on the flip side if I am going to not do shit with my life then I need to rope… but roping is still scary.