Serious My life has ended and I am just here to observe everything fall apart around me.

[Scilence]

I have so many important classes I can't go to. I can't even get my teammates because the stuff is in-person. My face is so unbelievably screwed more screwed than earlier years despite all my looksmaxxing attempts. My beard makes me depressed because I know the wind can easily change and reveal my flaws underneath. It is a hollow protection of black despair; nothing of substance just an illusion.

I know my true value and the world around me has no place for it. This was my fate ever since I was bluepilled by my family and western media like Disney and Spongebob Autism pants. Ever since I was born to a weak hearted low iq gook mother. It was over for me and now I will watch my life crumble around me suddenly or slowly. The worst thing is I don't even know how fast it will end I can die now at any moment from anything happening I am a bottom rung creature in a merciless eugenics based society with a useless family. I will be dead soon genuinely.

 

[zephyr]

I have so many important classes I can't go to. I can't even get my teammates because the stuff is in-person.

Are you feeling under the weather? Why can't you go to your classes?

 

[Stopping@Nothing19]

just know you aren't alone, the suffering is universal

 

[Scilence]

Are you feeling under the weather? Why can't you go to your classes?

I look like a different species altogether it would be laughable. Every time I go to tests or whatever I stick out like a sore thumb. Our university is huge as well with 40k students there's nowhere to hide. I am honestly wanting to die this year. Beyond that, I have 0 covid shots but I am not afraid that much. On campus, I have 0 friends as well. I have not talked to anyone in at least a few years and even abandoned a few of my friend groups in high school. I fear my old friends more than strangers to be honest.

 

[zephyr]

I look like a different species altogether it would be laughable. Every time I go to tests or whatever I stick out like a sore thumb. Our university is huge as well with 40k students there's nowhere to hide. I am honestly wanting to die this year. Beyond that, I have 0 covid shots but I am not afraid that much. On campus, I have 0 friends as well. I have not talked to anyone in at least a few years and even abandoned a few of my friend groups in high school. I fear my old friends more than strangers to be honest.

Did you not expect your looks to become such a barrier from learning something at University you presumably enjoy and or are good at?

 

[Scilence]

Did you not expect your looks to become such a barrier from learning something at University you presumably enjoy and or are good at?

No, I expected myself to go to university, work extremely hard and get an internship then move on with my life.

Honestly, I chose a field that I was good at but didn't feel particularly engaged with because some of the things I wanted to do were likely mathematically impossible. Ex human level artificial intelligence. Which, sort of made me depressed because I also wanted to study medicine. But, that road is closed since I never took biology due to blue pilled thoughts regarding taking a full bs course load to pass full ib.

Then, my looks began getting worse due to aging and the increased workloads factored in with decreasing health. Probably, my glasses which were very heavy as well, contributed and my uneven face plus how I was born to an older mother and fed a substandard diet and generally had poor habits in regards to bone development. For instance, I slept on my left side exclusively and that side has worse eyesight.

Ever since I was young, I thought looks didn't matter but now I see they indirectly and directly influence everything from performance and being treated like a normal human being. As if the workload wasn't enough, there is the constant questioning of me existing and repeated attacks by groups of socially adjusted people.

To top it off, I fell for the memes of just work hard and lost all of my friends due to it although I was also very weak and ugly.

Nowadays though, my performance has largely increased due to additional obscure knowledge, but my scars of how I was treated in the past still cause me to freeze up when looking at the nearby busstop.

 

[Mellatt]

just know you aren't alone, the suffering is universal

 

[OGcel]

i like this topic nobody described this perfectly how i feel, its like i'm fkin dead like a ghost idgaf about my life im just out there spectating

 

[crvkek]

keep the faith brocel. forward always . regrets will drown you in despair. you have chosen the path follow through and dont dwell on what you cant change.