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Hey guys im new, i would like to share with you my story if you would like to listen.
First of all i apologize about my grammar i suck at it...
It all started when i was 16 ive never really had any friends or a GF, me and some people i used to smoke weed with where at a party and i ended up staying over i was really out of it and i stole my mates mums underwear (i had been doing this type of behaviour for a long time but this was the first time i stole) At the time i thought nothing of it and carried on with my life.
At age 17 i had a gathering at my house we smoked some weed and drank quite a lot, one of my mates went onto my pc and went on a really bad site (child porn) i told him to turn it off an he did and i thought nothing of it, at this time i was oblivious of any consequence that may of occured.
i went through my life plodding on and staying with the same group of people as we all smoked weed together, i couldnt get a gf as i was and still am fat ugly socially retarded, struggled with keeping a job and stuff.
as years pass by i reach age 30 and this is when everything came back to bite me on my arse, i was made homeless from my grandparents house and lived in a bedsit, now i know this is going to sound unbelievable trust me i know
I let a guy who was also living there use my pc, he put a keylogger on my pc. now there was nothing on my pc that was bad just normal porn.
also while i was living there clear liquid leaked from my arms i thought i had a wank and jizzed on my arm or someshit and not seen it.
but it wasnt, underneath me was the basement and in this basement they had a gamma gun what they use to treat cancer and fired radiation at me, i didnt know this at the time obviously.
they fired it at my lower body i could feel my lymph nodes becoming swollen.
Now im in a flat at age 32 i thought everything would be ok here but a couple of months of being here and i found out that i have been being monitored by cameras while ive been here the whole time, and then also ive been being monitored since age 17 because of the site my "mate" went on
i know this sounds fucking crazy. it doesnt matter if u believe me or not as nobody does and the police have dragged me to the hospital because of the stuff ive been saying,
since i found out this i have totally isolated myself and cut myself off from the people i thought were my friends, you see my "mate" went on that site deliberately as he must of known the site name (as in someone gave it to him) he didnt go on that site on anyone elses pc...
my life is totally fucked im still being monitored everyday as though im some disgusting animal who is on suicide watch or fucking going to lose my shit. im so lost and hopeless ive been seriously considering roping, my "mate" always said to me jokingly that i was going to commit suicide. I now know that he is a satanist and they get off on making people feel that way.
im not a virgin i fuck pretty much anything thats alive. my standards are low af the last time i had sex was last year with a fat black landwhale, her pussy was bigger than i was. but recently i aint getting nowhere and ill probably just go and fuck a hungarian prostitute
i dont know where else to post this shit im hoping some of you understand
i know that everyone who surrounds me is now a threat. my neighbours, the govt, police even the NHS they all want to cut my lifespan in half or just make me kill myself. i have been with a service called the early intervention team which treats pshycosis and they put me on anti syko meds which just dont work (other than helping my mood)
i think the reason they dont work is because all this shit is real and has actually happened, im so angry and have nothing but seething hate for the people that did this to me.
First of all i apologize about my grammar i suck at it...
It all started when i was 16 ive never really had any friends or a GF, me and some people i used to smoke weed with where at a party and i ended up staying over i was really out of it and i stole my mates mums underwear (i had been doing this type of behaviour for a long time but this was the first time i stole) At the time i thought nothing of it and carried on with my life.
At age 17 i had a gathering at my house we smoked some weed and drank quite a lot, one of my mates went onto my pc and went on a really bad site (child porn) i told him to turn it off an he did and i thought nothing of it, at this time i was oblivious of any consequence that may of occured.
i went through my life plodding on and staying with the same group of people as we all smoked weed together, i couldnt get a gf as i was and still am fat ugly socially retarded, struggled with keeping a job and stuff.
as years pass by i reach age 30 and this is when everything came back to bite me on my arse, i was made homeless from my grandparents house and lived in a bedsit, now i know this is going to sound unbelievable trust me i know
I let a guy who was also living there use my pc, he put a keylogger on my pc. now there was nothing on my pc that was bad just normal porn.
also while i was living there clear liquid leaked from my arms i thought i had a wank and jizzed on my arm or someshit and not seen it.
but it wasnt, underneath me was the basement and in this basement they had a gamma gun what they use to treat cancer and fired radiation at me, i didnt know this at the time obviously.
they fired it at my lower body i could feel my lymph nodes becoming swollen.
Now im in a flat at age 32 i thought everything would be ok here but a couple of months of being here and i found out that i have been being monitored by cameras while ive been here the whole time, and then also ive been being monitored since age 17 because of the site my "mate" went on
i know this sounds fucking crazy. it doesnt matter if u believe me or not as nobody does and the police have dragged me to the hospital because of the stuff ive been saying,
since i found out this i have totally isolated myself and cut myself off from the people i thought were my friends, you see my "mate" went on that site deliberately as he must of known the site name (as in someone gave it to him) he didnt go on that site on anyone elses pc...
my life is totally fucked im still being monitored everyday as though im some disgusting animal who is on suicide watch or fucking going to lose my shit. im so lost and hopeless ive been seriously considering roping, my "mate" always said to me jokingly that i was going to commit suicide. I now know that he is a satanist and they get off on making people feel that way.
im not a virgin i fuck pretty much anything thats alive. my standards are low af the last time i had sex was last year with a fat black landwhale, her pussy was bigger than i was. but recently i aint getting nowhere and ill probably just go and fuck a hungarian prostitute
i dont know where else to post this shit im hoping some of you understand
i know that everyone who surrounds me is now a threat. my neighbours, the govt, police even the NHS they all want to cut my lifespan in half or just make me kill myself. i have been with a service called the early intervention team which treats pshycosis and they put me on anti syko meds which just dont work (other than helping my mood)
i think the reason they dont work is because all this shit is real and has actually happened, im so angry and have nothing but seething hate for the people that did this to me.
