Did anyone else ever not get mental peace and contendedness as a child and teenager ? For vast majority of my life, I was confined to either School or Home. At School I had to deal with vicious scumbag normies and compete with them in academics and co-curriculars which already requires immense mental effort. At home I was either a trauma dumpster for my mum or a punching bag for my entire family, someone they could insult and belittle without any reprucussions. I had to constantly walk on eggshells to not upset my parents and justify every little thing I did for myself. I remember as a 13 year old youngcel some niggas(some of whom are chadpreets now) from my class took me to have lunch with them on the top of a roof of a building near our school. You could see the entire city and some really tall skyscrapers from there. Great view. As we shared food and talked about anime and whatnot I realized in that moment that what I was experiencing for that short moment what normal people experienced always. Safety, happiness, contendedness and the feeling of not being on 'edge'. Funny I have zero memories of my childhood but this memory has sticken with me always and will probably be with me when I die.
