I’ve known I was ugly for years. But as of recent Ive realised just how ugly I am , I began analysing my face in the mirror on Monday. I look hideous. I don’t know how I never realised just how unlovable and disgusting I am. I don’t know how it happened. Everyone else in my family is good looking. meanwhile i am hideous. The rope is honestly calling my name rn and I’m not sure how much longer I can go on. Not saying I’m gonna do anything, I’m probably not. But the thoughts are getting stronger. If there is a god he is a sadist , why would you make your own creation suffer like this?. I am the ugliest person Ive ever met and others have told me the same .finding out my mother groomed me definitely didn’t help. I feel so uncomfortable all the time and I have this horrible nervous feeling even tho I have no reason to be nervous. Over the past week I’ve been to depressed to leave my bed. I wanted to commit suicide yesterday but I was too fucking lazy to get out of bed. Atleast coping here is fun
