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virgin4life
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So every now and then when I am going out with a buddy of mine he brings this girl and tells me how we would make a good couple and I should give it a try. She is way out of my league and it is fucking ridiculous and makes me mad. He never tells me before because he knows I would not come. Yesterday he did it again and it was totally aweful and embarassing. He doesn't understand that my SMV is below zero and no foid would ever touch me with a pole. When he does this I hate myself especially bad as I am reminded for hours of how much of a loser I am. I am fat, truecel faced with a tiny dick + autismcel and most of the time I am fine with it because I am coping and not thinking about it. But every time he tries to hook me up I immediately start to feel like a piece of shit with legs and eyes that wanders the earth.
I think I really need to do something about being fat because I realize it takes too much of a toll on my ego and makes me feel like crap. I HATE fat people and I am fat myself so that is a serious issue.
I know I won't ever have a gf and no foid will ever find me attractive and at 37 I have accepted it and accepting it is the best you can do because then at least you don't feel like shit all the time. But every time he does this I am reminded of it and it makes me sick. I am reminded of what I can't have and what I never will have.
I think I really need to do something about being fat because I realize it takes too much of a toll on my ego and makes me feel like crap. I HATE fat people and I am fat myself so that is a serious issue.
I know I won't ever have a gf and no foid will ever find me attractive and at 37 I have accepted it and accepting it is the best you can do because then at least you don't feel like shit all the time. But every time he does this I am reminded of it and it makes me sick. I am reminded of what I can't have and what I never will have.