Living with OCD is a nightmare I wouldn't wish on anybody it seems like whenever I'm able to get over something caused by my OCD something else takes it's please, See something gross? now my brain will remember it forever attaching it to everything I decide on doing, replaying it over and over and over until I become miserable as it's all I focus on, Then sometimes I can feel some of my bodily functions focusing on them to the point I feel like I have manually do them so I don't literally die or maybe it's the ringing in my ear that doesn't go away and then when I think I've conquered it all it's my entire identity that's bugging me for some reason.
It's every single day with this and I only get short moments where I'm so focused on doing something else that I forget to think about those things but once I take one step back and relax it all starts coming back. I literally must delude myself that I will rich one day and invent a technology that cures my mind so that it can act normally like it did when I was kid.
My mind going down the gutter like this is why I joined this forum in the first place, I need something that might help me get my mind off this stuff and what better way to do so than quite literally participating in discussion on forum that you relate with?
It's every single day with this and I only get short moments where I'm so focused on doing something else that I forget to think about those things but once I take one step back and relax it all starts coming back. I literally must delude myself that I will rich one day and invent a technology that cures my mind so that it can act normally like it did when I was kid.
My mind going down the gutter like this is why I joined this forum in the first place, I need something that might help me get my mind off this stuff and what better way to do so than quite literally participating in discussion on forum that you relate with?
