My borderline personality disorder makes me think I'm a model

[BonePressed]

Fuck BPD, for real. 

This is how my day went today:

I woke up, feeling neutral. Then the "high" kicked in. 
I looked in the mirror and saw a male supermodel staring back at me. I became egotistical. 
Walked to class thinking I'm the best looking guy on the campus. Making eye contact with girls, smiling and whatnot. 
Spent my first class thinking I'm the shit. 

And then the "low" kicked by the second class. 
Everything came crashing down. 
Instantly became depressed and started acting shy and timid. 
Started perceiving myself as extremely subhuman. 
Started having suicidal thoughts


Now imagine multiple more highs and lows that day. 

And then imagine having to experience that every single fucking day for the rest of your life

And that's just one of my several mental disorders

 

[theultimate341]

Jfl @ trusting the mirror

 

[Tellem--T]

Jfl @ trusting the mirror

Fuck the mirror it also makes me look leaner,

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Yea I have the same problem as you,

 

[demonanus]

Quite mental.

 

[towncel]

I can't even trick myself that my face is any good, let alone above average - it looks subhuman from any angle and with any haircut

 

[RREEEEEEEEE]

Pm your pics.

 

[GeneticDysfunction]

Thats mother nature letting you know your subhuman place so your defective genes die with you

 

[BonePressed]

Quite mental.

Being alone in your thoughts for so long messes you up. 

I have spent more time alone in my room than I have out of it. 

And now I need the solitude. I need the silence. I need the emptiness. 

Because that's all I've ever known.

 

[QuantumDummy]

Wtf, I do the same shit.. I hope I don't have BPD, too.

 

[BonePressed]

Wtf, I do the same shit.. I hope I don't have BPD, too.

It's over boyo

 

[Deleted member 60]

I felt sexy earlier today. Now I feel ugly again.

 

[QuantumDummy]

It's over boyo

Not quite.

 

[Blackpill101]

The mirror is all fake. Like yourself, I used to think that I'm an actual model-tier Chadlite back then but my photos proved the exact opposite. Now if I want to "improve" my shitty appearance I just use an app showing a "realistic" mirror through my front phone camera.

 

[IdealHyoidBone]

Jfl @ trusting the mirror

I look ideal in most kinds of reflections. Although I look like shit in pictures with flash.

 

[KoolmercenaryKid]

Quite mental.

Being alone in your thoughts for so long messes you up.
I have spent more time alone in my room than I have out of it.
And now I need the solitude. I need the silence. I need the emptiness.
Because that's all I've ever known.

Why were you cooped up for so long

 

[BonePressed]

Why were you cooped up for so long

No friends, reserved family, quiet neighborhood in the countryside 

Nothing else to do other than LDAR

 

[Deleted member 1060]

Being alone in your thoughts for so long messes you up. 

I have spent more time alone in my room than I have out of it. 

And now I need the solitude. I need the silence. I need the emptiness. 

Because that's all I've ever known.

Ignore what other people say, your statement clearly shows you are approaching nirvana, you are on the noble path of brahmacharya. Being alone in one's thought does not mess anyone up, it's a basic form of dhyana (meditation). You should seek silence (nishabd), tranquillity (prashanti). One day you will reach the state of aparigraha (indifference to material world).

 

[/pol/cel]

Ignore what other people say, your statement clearly shows you are approaching nirvana, you are on the noble path of brahmacharya. Being alone in one's thought does not mess anyone up, it's a basic form of dhyana (meditation). You should seek silence (nishabd), tranquillity (prashanti). One day you will reach the state of aparigraha (indifference to material world).

Whats the fastest way to reach aparigraha? I cant cope with this degenerate planet anymore.

 

[BonePressed]

Ignore what other people say, your statement clearly shows you are approaching nirvana, you are on the noble path of brahmacharya. Being alone in one's thought does not mess anyone up, it's a basic form of dhyana (meditation). You should seek silence (nishabd), tranquillity (prashanti). One day you will reach the state of aparigraha (indifference to material world).

Reminds me of this article I read a year ago

https://www.updevelopment.org/feeling-empty/

 

[Deleted member 1060]

Whats the fastest way to reach aparigraha? I cant cope with this degenerate planet anymore.

First step: destroy your smart phone with a hammer, liberate yourself from the enslavement.

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Reminds me of this article I read a year ago

https://www.updevelopment.org/feeling-empty/

nice read.