And yeah, I am kinda trying my best to lowinhibmaxx, social-circlemaxx, and friend/acquaintancemaxx as much as I possibly can through the few friends & acquaintances I have irl. I know that it won't help me ascend, but if I can still make some friends that I can spend time with that will maybe improve my quality of life. Even if I don't become very close with them, it is better than complete rotting. I have had very few, if even really any, that many close friends in my life. Maybe when I was much younger as a little kid and probably 1 or 2 over my teen years.
Hopefully, if I can become an adult with a somewhat decent & stable job, I can finance better hobbies & copes which I can use to meet possible friends/acquaintances through. High-school was by far the worst time for me in my life socially though, no question about it.