So I live alone, mostly still on Neetbuxx which I guess is the only thing my parents ever provided for me. My mother, sometimes visits me every 3 or 4 weeks AND she goes crazy, no matter how i do it.
My mother has an extreme Cleaning Fetish and shes a complete Workaholic - but she gets pissed off because she worked for 35 years and...Well doesnt own anything. Despite being in Finance - shes not particulary smart with Financing or generating money. She just has all her money in her savings account and Inflation, as well as somewhat providing for me pisses her off.
Literally she has a Masters degree and worked all her life, is a minimalist, frugalist and all she really "owns" is two 35k cars, one 2 bedroom Apartment in a fucking suburb and a bunch of furniture
(I dont even know what my father really owns? Hes a gambling and porn addict, literally owns nothing i think, he has finished 3 trading degrees btw)
I spend hours every day cleaning EVERYTHING. I dust, I clean windows once a week, i wash all the pots and pans before she visits, have anything sorted our, wash, dry, iron the cloths, have the kitchen in tip top order, take out the trash regulary BUT it doesnt matter - theres ALWAYS something she complains about.
Last time the (14 yo) Freezer didnt close properly because the magnetism is off and its an older model that doesnt give a Signal on when its not properly closes...so she visited and well the Freezer wasnt freezing anymore SHE goes crazy.
Basically that was just an example, theres like always some detail she rages about.
Its something i simply cant stand anymore. I also hate university and the shit I choose is too complex but i cant quit or fail after 3.5 years of studying shit that I actually dont even like - and she knows that. Which she attacks me mentally again.
Then on top of everything she always talks about some random topic - but i already know it. Shes never been much on the Internet in her entire life, literally she used her Smartphone an average of 5 minutes per day. So when I tell her that Ive been knowing about topic "XYZ" for years shes like "What can I even talk to you about anymore when you already know everything???"
Or my DBDR Doomer Mentalceldom "What can make you even happy?" She doesnt understand that theres only 2 things that would make me happy but both are unreachable:
1. Freedom: Being unbound to this shit society and its shit economy, basically being completely financially free, not bound to shit jobs, useless degrees or anxiety increasing demands and exams. Literally even the Internet i could less give a shit about.
2. Love: Just a traditional, loyal, beautiful, mentally stable girlfriend - but oh well even Chad knows that doesnt exist no more.
So WHATS THE FUCKING POINT?!
I cant take the complains about "ME EXISTING" anymore.
My mother has an extreme Cleaning Fetish and shes a complete Workaholic - but she gets pissed off because she worked for 35 years and...Well doesnt own anything. Despite being in Finance - shes not particulary smart with Financing or generating money. She just has all her money in her savings account and Inflation, as well as somewhat providing for me pisses her off.
Literally she has a Masters degree and worked all her life, is a minimalist, frugalist and all she really "owns" is two 35k cars, one 2 bedroom Apartment in a fucking suburb and a bunch of furniture
(I dont even know what my father really owns? Hes a gambling and porn addict, literally owns nothing i think, he has finished 3 trading degrees btw)
I spend hours every day cleaning EVERYTHING. I dust, I clean windows once a week, i wash all the pots and pans before she visits, have anything sorted our, wash, dry, iron the cloths, have the kitchen in tip top order, take out the trash regulary BUT it doesnt matter - theres ALWAYS something she complains about.
Last time the (14 yo) Freezer didnt close properly because the magnetism is off and its an older model that doesnt give a Signal on when its not properly closes...so she visited and well the Freezer wasnt freezing anymore SHE goes crazy.
Basically that was just an example, theres like always some detail she rages about.
Its something i simply cant stand anymore. I also hate university and the shit I choose is too complex but i cant quit or fail after 3.5 years of studying shit that I actually dont even like - and she knows that. Which she attacks me mentally again.
Then on top of everything she always talks about some random topic - but i already know it. Shes never been much on the Internet in her entire life, literally she used her Smartphone an average of 5 minutes per day. So when I tell her that Ive been knowing about topic "XYZ" for years shes like "What can I even talk to you about anymore when you already know everything???"
Or my DBDR Doomer Mentalceldom "What can make you even happy?" She doesnt understand that theres only 2 things that would make me happy but both are unreachable:
1. Freedom: Being unbound to this shit society and its shit economy, basically being completely financially free, not bound to shit jobs, useless degrees or anxiety increasing demands and exams. Literally even the Internet i could less give a shit about.
2. Love: Just a traditional, loyal, beautiful, mentally stable girlfriend - but oh well even Chad knows that doesnt exist no more.
So WHATS THE FUCKING POINT?!
I cant take the complains about "ME EXISTING" anymore.
