Was at the store today, there weren't a lot of people but as I was paying (with card) a woman loaded her items onto the conveyer belt. She knew the employee at the register and the customer woman immediately began making comments about my appearance. Can't remember what exactly, as I was so upset after but some "joke" about being lucky in life and "even has the guts to go outside", something like that. Even my brain, over the years, has been negatively impacted by these experiences. My memory and processing speed have objectively reduced (sure it's due to my 28 years old age but it's also more).
I am too high inhibited to say something, especially because they knew each other. As I drove out in the car (my mother's), onto the road she was walking across the pedestrian crossing, and I seriously thought about rolling the window down and shouting something, but again, I'm too high inhibited for that.
A few days ago, an old man said to his wife that I look like a "monster"...
These "jokes" or comments, however they are intended, hurt. They're injuring me and I always come back home to lick my wounds, I should be working on my important essay (I study 100% remote), I have huge pressure from my parents to do well.
A year or so ago, I did say something in a similar situation and they just started laughing in response. It was a man and a woman back then, the man made the joke, to which I showed the middle finger and something like watch out.
I don't care what people think of me, but I do care about the utter disrespect towards me. At least say what you think of me, directly to my face, instead of about me.
They're destroying my days, my weeks, my life. It hurts deep inside. And sooner or later, I'll succumb to my injuries.
I am too high inhibited to say something, especially because they knew each other. As I drove out in the car (my mother's), onto the road she was walking across the pedestrian crossing, and I seriously thought about rolling the window down and shouting something, but again, I'm too high inhibited for that.
A few days ago, an old man said to his wife that I look like a "monster"...
These "jokes" or comments, however they are intended, hurt. They're injuring me and I always come back home to lick my wounds, I should be working on my important essay (I study 100% remote), I have huge pressure from my parents to do well.
A year or so ago, I did say something in a similar situation and they just started laughing in response. It was a man and a woman back then, the man made the joke, to which I showed the middle finger and something like watch out.
I don't care what people think of me, but I do care about the utter disrespect towards me. At least say what you think of me, directly to my face, instead of about me.
They're destroying my days, my weeks, my life. It hurts deep inside. And sooner or later, I'll succumb to my injuries.
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