She found out I had been going to the local park in just my underwear and sunbathing for hours each day.
"You've become some kind of freak. What will people think about you. You have to conform to society to some degree. " Being in your underwear isn't even that crazy. I could buy a swimming suit instead, but I wont out of spite. Why should I wear polyester instead of cotton. Idc what randos think.
On another note, the sunlight is affecting me, for better or for worse. I am like 3 shades darker and my hair is 3 shades lighter. Nothing about my life has changed, I am still alone. And yet I don't feel lonely anymore. When I'm sunbathing I feel contempt with the way things are. Haven't felt sad or jaded in a while. That means that either: a) The sunlight has fixed my biochemistry/gut microbiome or b) I am losing my mind and will soon spiral.
I know I won't be truly happy as long as I'm alone but this is not a cope, I've genuinely never felt better. I'm never hungry, and my eyebags are gone. I only have to wash my hair/shower once a week now as after months of not using shampoo it oils itself naturally and doesn't look disgusting. Don't wash my face at all anymore.
"You've become some kind of freak. What will people think about you. You have to conform to society to some degree. " Being in your underwear isn't even that crazy. I could buy a swimming suit instead, but I wont out of spite. Why should I wear polyester instead of cotton. Idc what randos think.
On another note, the sunlight is affecting me, for better or for worse. I am like 3 shades darker and my hair is 3 shades lighter. Nothing about my life has changed, I am still alone. And yet I don't feel lonely anymore. When I'm sunbathing I feel contempt with the way things are. Haven't felt sad or jaded in a while. That means that either: a) The sunlight has fixed my biochemistry/gut microbiome or b) I am losing my mind and will soon spiral.
I know I won't be truly happy as long as I'm alone but this is not a cope, I've genuinely never felt better. I'm never hungry, and my eyebags are gone. I only have to wash my hair/shower once a week now as after months of not using shampoo it oils itself naturally and doesn't look disgusting. Don't wash my face at all anymore.
