Mogged and cucked by my own father, a new low in life.

[Deleted member 33788]

Guys,

I cant cope anymore. I am too depressed to continue to study and want to move back home. My parents own an appartment where i could move into but they want to have the full price for it and let me work for it. My father literally cares more about the money than over my mental health or well being. My parents shame me for not wanting to take part in this system. It feels like total hell. My dad bought a new mercedes and drives it proudly when he picks me up from the airport, cucks me at the same time, looks down on me. He literally enjoys me failure because it lets him look good and makes him feel he is still the better male. My mom cares more about what other people think than what would be good for me. They are both people who suck big times.

I cant do this anymore.

How can you cope with being brought into this shithole.

God save me.

 

[kikecel]

currently in the process of hermitmaxxing
you should try it out

 

[AbsolutelyBrutal]

Do you have siblings? Anyone you can count on?

 

[Deleted member 33788]

thinking about hermitmaxxing since age 14. do not have enough money to finance a decent hermitmaxxed living.

Do you have siblings? Anyone you can count on?

Not really, i have some friends but they are not super close, i can talk about it with them though. When it comes to life though i am alone. Have always been. It sucks. At least i have people here on this forum who can relate.
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currently in the process of hermitmaxxing
you should try it out

A really hermitmaxxed option would be to live in a super cheap appartment. Work 20 hours a week and enjoy nature, go to the gym and copemaxx as hard as you can. Maybe buy a cat or a dog. I am introvert enough to survive until this system might break down anyways.

 

[AbsolutelyBrutal]

thinking about hermitmaxxing since age 14. do not have enough money to finance a decent hermitmaxxed living.

Not really, i have some friends but they are not super close, i can talk about it with them though. When it comes to life though i am alone. Have always been. It sucks. At least i have people here on this forum who can relate.
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I don't suggest hermitmaxxing, you will end up developing schizo, paranoia, and all sorts of nasty shit very young and you won't be able to trust yourself, which is extremely brutal. Hold onto the friends you have for dear life, because the moment you lose your social life and your family turns on you, it's over.
Not having relatives to count on is brutal on another level, what country are you from?

 

[Deleted member 33716]

I don't suggest hermitmaxxing, you will end up developing schizo, paranoia, and all sorts of nasty shit very young and you won't be able to trust yourself, which is extremely brutal.

Hermitmaxx is a shortcut to mentalcel.

I tried it for 3 months in my early twenties - basically hikkikomori in a small town house by myself - wasn't great for my brain.

 

[AbsolutelyBrutal]

Hermitmaxx is a shortcut to mentalcel.

I tried it for 3 months in my early twenties - basically hikkikomori in a small town house by myself - wasn't great for my brain.

When did you start toi have hallucinations?

 

[Deleted member 33716]

When did you start toi have hallucinations?

I never saw things, but after the first month I would sometimes hear people calling my name (I'm alone in the house), even when I had my headphones on for gaming. My sleep-wake cycle got fucked up. I lost weight (muscle mass) from sitting for too long and not moving enough and not eating well. I got anxious about having to go out. I got anxious talking to the currycel working graveyard shift at the convenience store (this is before online grocery deliveries were a thing). My hygiene went down the toilet. I was always constipated. I felt sad a lot. My hate for the world intensified (I had anger issues when I was younger), strangely, even though I had minimal contact with the outside.

Overall, pretty shit. Would not recommend.

 

[AbsolutelyBrutal]

I never saw things, but after the first month I would sometimes hear people calling my name (I'm alone in the house), even when I had my headphones on for gaming. My sleep-wake cycle got fucked up. I lost weight (muscle mass) from sitting for too long and not moving enough and not eating well. I got anxious about having to go out. I got anxious talking to the currycel working graveyard shift at the convenience store (this is before online grocery deliveries were a thing). My hygiene went down the toilet. I was always constipated. I felt sad a lot. My hate for the world intensified (I had anger issues when I was younger), strangely, even though I had minimal contact with the outside.

Overall, pretty shit. Would not recommend.

It only took ONE MONTH for you to start having hallucinations (yes, auditory ones count too).
Thanks for sharing your experiences to enlighteng on why becoming a hermit is extremely brutal for your mental health. I have no doubt you would've developed visual hallucinations if you had stayed for a couple of months more.

 

[Deleted member 33716]

It only took ONE MONTH for you to start having hallucinations (yes, auditory ones count too).
Thanks for sharing your experiences to enlighteng on why becoming a hermit is extremely brutal for your mental health. I have no doubt you would've developed visual hallucinations if you had stayed for a couple of months more.

I lived like that for 3 months until I had to go back to university, and my money was running low.
You hear about hikkikomori in Japan living like that for years - crazy stuff.

 

[Meus]

You know what you have to do, tigER.

 

[Ika-Sama]

un−l¯æd efen dêaðcwylmende him of hê hwæðre sîn merehrægl onlic bêga dryhtguma

 

[Deleted member 33788]

I don't suggest hermitmaxxing, you will end up developing schizo, paranoia, and all sorts of nasty shit very young and you won't be able to trust yourself, which is extremely brutal. Hold onto the friends you have for dear life, because the moment you lose your social life and your family turns on you, it's over.
Not having relatives to count on is brutal on another level, what country are you from?

Yeah you are right. I am already edgin due to the lockdown rules but to be honest. I once was on a vacation with family and i felt so dissconnected and isolated, it would have been way better to be alone. Sometimes being alone is better than being with people who make you feel even worse. Its the same with tinder. If you are lonely and you install the app, for a short moment there is a glimpse of hope but then when you swipe 200 girls and get no match or one match and that match doesnt even text back. You feel even worse In the end i am trying to friendmaxx i think. Maybe group with like minded people. I will try. Would prefer to not disclose location.

 

[Fancy Alcoholic]

Do you study or are you looking for a job ?