Venting Mentalcell How Should I KMS

[droktaar]

I fucking hate my life. In the last 3 years, my family forced me into med school here in Brasil. I was first in class for most of the time, but 95% of the guys are Chads and Chadlites; they mock me for anything, they cheat and brag that they won against me. They laugh when I cry, they fuck the stacys that I like. I am alone, locked in my room for all the time I am not at school. My family is 2000 km away from me and also do not give a shit, because it is OK to be lonely, it is OK not to have a girlfriend, because you will always be our number one even if you are not going well. "Because you need to graduate to make me proud", says my grandma, "you don't need women, only to study, I married and lost my virginity at 27, you can wait too". I only have two friends, but one (lets call her B) is married and ignores me. I crushed on the other girl (lets call her Green) that is whore-lite, and she tells me about her "dick friend" Chad, and keeps saying I am "unfuckable". I locked myself in my room yesterday, and I may be in the middle of a psychotic episode. I am only writing nonsensically, can't study, can't eat, sleep, etc. Yesterday, I challenged the cheaters from my class to a smallsword or pistol duel, but they started laughing and proceeded to call me insane to everybody present. Then I swore that I would quarter them someday for cheating and making me look bad. Also, I asked all the femoids in college for marriage, and they react the same as the boys. I hate my life, I can't stand being humiliated anymore, nor the loneliness.

Would anyone help me with ways to kill myself? I hate hate hate hate hate hate my life. I hate being this lonely, I just want the company of a wife. I thought that I could survive it, that I could finish this hell, save some money and buy me a wife. From Asia, from some poor rural family here in Brasil, from the gypsies, I would marry any girl. But I am broken. I can't take it anymore.

 

[Ritalincel]

go eee ahh

 

[CopeWithTheRope]

Stay and cope with us, boyo.

 

[Ghost]

Would anyone help me with ways to kill myself? I hate hate hate hate hate hate my life.

Hang in there... Your libido will decrease as you age. I'm 35. Was exactly where you're at now.

That and turn to Christ. He's the only hope. This life is trash anyway regardless of your social status. Why do you think these celebrities kill themselves if they're so high status?

 

[Dekim]

Van Halen - jump

 

[theultimate341]

cope till death until you cant take it anymore

 

[ProudIncelistani]

go eee ahh

 

[AntiPain]

This sounds weird no offence, more like straight outta typical teenagers drama Holywood film.
But in case you're serious, don't follow your family's orders.
Do what YOU like to do, go YOUR own way.
If you feel like shit there and you study just because your parents want you to just drop out of it.

Find a job be it even Mcdonalds, save money and gain your freedom.
But if you do have money you should study, but only if you want to and if it's what you like, cause let's be real you gotta have education
to get a good paying job in the future, nothing to do with femoids as their existence should never prevent you from chasing your dreams.

 

[IsolationHurts]

Been there, but i could get the degree after years of humiliations. I was also known as the creepy guy that went around disturbing girls.... I dont think you are high inhib, so you should actually try to shut up around people.
If you think you might have a chance if you could get a job, you should try to get one while you ignore your degree, and when you get a job, ignore your family for some years. You dont need them anyway if you have money.
If you think everything is lost anyway, you should move with your parents and try to be a NEET as long as you can. Then, maybe you can kill yourself.
I mean, if you are sure that you cant get a gf by being a doctor in the future, just drop it. I studied for 5 fucking years for nothing at all, because my degree is useless. Yours wont be.
Anyway, you probably need medication.

 

[Sgtpinkie]

go eee ahh

It doesn't work for me

 

[droktaar]

Hang in there... Your libido will decrease as you age. I'm 35. Was exactly where you're at now.

That and turn to Christ. He's the only hope. This life is trash anyway regardless of your social status. Why do you think these celebrities kill themselves if they're so high status?

The thing is that I am very catholic, I do believe completely in the Church and in Christ, but I have felt no hope lately. In church, I am also a lonely weirdo as I am in school. The silence from the heavens is maddening.

This sounds weird no offence, more like straight outta typical teenagers drama Holywood film.
But in case you're serious, don't follow your family's orders.
Do what YOU like to do, go YOUR own way.
If you feel like shit there and you study just because your parents want you to just drop out of it.

Find a job be it even Mcdonalds, save money and gain your freedom.
But if you do have money you should study, but only if you want to and if it's what you like, cause let's be real you gotta have education
to get a good paying job in the future, nothing to do with femoids as their existence should never prevent you from chasing your dreams.

The only thing I wish is a fucking femoid keeping my loneliness away. I even tried prostitutes, but it is not love, and I feel "catholic guilt" after. The sole reason I did not kill myself in those last 3 years was the perspective of graduating and getting money fast. As they say here in Brasil "money on the hand, panties land". But this ambient is making me hopeless and tired.

Been there, but i could get the degree after years of humiliations. I was also known as the creepy guy that went around disturbing girls.... I dont think you are high inhib, so you should actually try to shut up around people.
If you think you might have a chance if you could get a job, you should try to get one while you ignore your degree, and when you get a job, ignore your family for some years. You dont need them anyway if you have money.
If you think everything is lost anyway, you should move with your parents and try to be a NEET as long as you can. Then, maybe you can kill yourself.
I mean, if you are sure that you cant get a gf by being a doctor in the future, just drop it. I studied for 5 fucking years for nothing at all, because my degree is useless. Yours wont be.
Anyway, you probably need medication.

Getting a job for now is not an option. I have classes from 8:00 to 17:00 everyday, and have to study for tests every week. But I do think there is hope for me to graduate. The teacher who said I was not fit to practice medicine actually gave me passing grades this semester, so things, only in this aspect, are less grim. B and Green are doing their thing with the respective husband/fuck buddy and I more alone than ever. I was on agomelatine and bupropion, but my psychiatrist changed it to SSRI last month and I couldn't sleep for days, so I dropped it. My dad got a friend to prescribe agomelatine again, but the pills are lost in some storage deposit at the airport 25 km from town and I can't easily go there. People say that the psychiatry teacher tells them that I am just making things up, that I am only an idiot.

I really just wanted to be loved by a woman. Any would suffice.

 

[doktordoom]

find some inspiration... go out and discovER yourself

bud as a schizo im on haldol, lithium and i cant remember which other.. i hope you pull through

 

[Berok]

you asked them to a sword fight?

 

[masterwizard]

Yesterday, I challenged the cheaters from my class to a smallsword or pistol duel

Did you accidentally leap ahead in time 300 years? That may be the cause of your inceldom.

 

[droktaar]

you asked them to a sword fight?

Yes, I did. I like swords and pistols. They are the real equalizers. Chads muscles will never protect him from a bullet or a blade.

Did you accidentally leap ahead in time 300 years? That may be the cause of your inceldom.

Imagine if we had been born in the middle ages or early modern age. We would have happy arranged marriages, sex everyday, kids, company, everything we could wish for. Maybe we would die from bubonic plague, but I would accept that trade-off any day.

 

[Pewaraw]

you asked them to a sword fight?

Oh shit I didn't even notice that he did
No wonder they laughed at him.That's ridiculous

 

[_incelinside]

Medical school top of the class. I would swap lives with you in a fucking millisecond. Fuck the chads. You IQmog those shitforbrains

 

[Pewaraw]

Yes, I did. I like swords and pistols. They are the real equalizers. Chads muscles will never protect him from a bullet or a blade.



Imagine if we had been born in the middle ages or early modern age. We would have happy arranged marriages, sex everyday, kids, company, everything we could wish for. Maybe we would die from bubonic plague, but I would accept that trade-off any day.

Yeah man. No internet, dying because of an infection, no video games, just being killed as a farmer by some random Knight from another castle. Also there was no sex everyday. Only to reproduce since they were very religious and if you like kids so much adopt one.

Medical school top of the class. I would swap lives with you in a fucking millisecond. Fuck the chads. You IQmog those shitforbrains

Not really since they're also in med school. With him,like he stated.

 

[FACEandLMS]

I challenged the cheaters from my class to a smallsword or pistol duel, but they started laughing and proceeded to call me insane to everybody present. Then I swore that I would quarter them someday for cheating and making me look bad.

You sound like an ER in the making. You sound nuttier than a fruitcake. It's over for you. LOL@threatening to quarter someone. You should check yourself into a mental hospital, serious.

I asked all the femoids in college for marriage

Yeah, if you were sane, you wouldn't ask women that you're not sure if they even like you for their hand in marriage.

 

[droktaar]

Medical school top of the class. I would swap lives with you in a fucking millisecond. Fuck the chads. You IQmog those shitforbrains

Top of the class in a shit tier school that nobody wants to join. After my mental breakdown, I may have lost some positions. Also, there are dumb and smart chads here anyway. Medical students are the chadest of populations, we even have our inter-college games called intermed designed exclusively getting drugged and laid for 5 consecutive days each 6 months. Of course, I would never be allowed to play in this disgusting shit.

 

[Deleted member 1252]

 

[droktaar]

Didn't get it, Mayor

 

[_incelinside]

Top of the class in a shit tier school that nobody wants to join. After my mental breakdown, I may have lost some positions. Also, there are dumb and smart chads here anyway. Medical students are the chadest of populations, we even have our inter-college games called intermed designed exclusively getting drugged and laid for 5 consecutive days each 6 months. Of course, I would never be allowed to play in this disgusting shit.

Oh well. There's one thing left to do


Go

 

[droktaar]

Proof

 

[JackAutismo]

Take some sleeping pills and get in the bath- then you will inevitably drown.

 

[Ritalincel]

Go

 

[anondump]

Its brasil.
You can kill them and walk away.

 

[JackAutismo]

Would anyone help me with ways to kill myself?

Just take a sleeping tablet- possibly overdose but not necessarily- and then get in the bath.
Ih you’re a health sciences student, and you don’t know how to commit suicide, then honestly doubt you top your class.

 

[droktaar]

I was planning in stealing KCl and propofol from the hospital, but it may go very wrong. I also thought of making chloroform at home with bleach and acetone, being so easy to find. Then I would strap the bottle on my nose and mouth then inhale 100 mL or more of it and die.

 

[BlackPillUNC]

Go live in a forest in Brazil. That'd be interesting.

 

[JackAutismo]

I was planning in stealing KCl and propofol from the hospital, but it may go very wrong. I also thought of making chloroform at home with bleach and acetone, being so easy to find. Then I would strap the bottle on my nose and mouth then inhale 100 mL or more of it and die.

Or just take a conventional sleeping tablet like zopiclone or melatonin and get in a bath and then you will go to sleep and drown.

 

[droktaar]

Or just take a conventional sleeping tablet like zopiclone or melatonin and get in a bath and then you will go to sleep and drown.

Thats not how it works, negative IQ pharm post.

 

[RREEEEEEEEE]

Don't.

 

[Mik_TFL]

I see you've met our old friend "despair", he is a total son of a bitch isn't he? Don't throw away your life kid, not for the approval of chads/stacies. Finish med school, and join something like doctors without borders, get yourself a wife in some shithole country where you are seen as chad

 

[tooth monster]

I'm in a similar position to you, only I'm seen as dumb and invisible. You should definitely do what Mik_TFL said, don't waste your brains like this.

 

[Ritalincel]

melatonin

kek

 

[JackAutismo]

Thats not how it works, negative IQ pharm post.

Taking a sleeping tablet like zopiclone and going to sleep in your bath would kill you.

 

[BasedGod1]

go eee ahh

 

[LebaneseCel]

Just LDAR. Killing yourself without also causing damage on those who hate you is a cucked act.

 

[whogivesafucc]

You sound like an ER in the making. You sound nuttier than a fruitcake. It's over for you. LOL@threatening to quarter someone. You should check yourself into a mental hospital, serious.



Yeah, if you were sane, you wouldn't ask women that you're not sure if they even like you for their hand in marriage.

why do your posts make me laugh so hard lmfaooooooooo

 

[Deleted member 250]

dont kill yourself, show the college how much of a bettEr peRson you can be

 

[whogivesafucc]

you literally asked a bunch of dudes to swordfight you lol

you have very low inhibition i guess so you should just act crazy and people won't fuck with you

although you live in brazil, one of the worst shitholes on planet earth so i guess everyone is already crazier than you by default there, it's over.

 

[FACEandLMS]

you literally asked a bunch of dudes to swordfight you lol

you have very low inhibition i guess so you should just act crazy and people won't fuck with you

although you live in brazil, one of the worst shitholes on planet earth so i guess everyone is already crazier than you by default there, it's over.

Nah just autism or psycopathy

 

[Juxtaposition6]

That's fucked, i can imagine how shit life must be when you're an ugly male that is not a schizoid nutcase, i feel blessed for not desiring relationships, don't kill yourself by the way.

Just LDAR. Killing yourself without also causing damage on those who hate you is a cucked act.

 

[droktaar]

Update: I will start taking my medication again. Valdoxan and bupropion daily, any benzo when things get hard and I need to knock myself out. Probably only before tests or days where I am too lonely. Also, I will stop orbiting Green and spending any more time at college than the strictly necessary.

I really want to thank folks from this forum for letting me vent out. It is not like the rest of internet let's people joke around Elliot Rodgering people.

Time to fix my life; I lived without femoids for all my life, I think I can manage 3 more years.

 

[Akkadian]

Stay and cope with us, boyo.

 

[TheGoat]

Who challenges anybody to a smallsword or pistol duel anymore

 

[The End]

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Update: I will start taking my medication again. Valdoxan and bupropion daily, any benzo when things get hard and I need to knock myself out. Probably only before tests or days where I am too lonely. Also, I will stop orbiting Green and spending any more time at college than the strictly necessary.

I really want to thank folks from this forum for letting me vent out. It is not like the rest of internet let's people joke around Elliot Rodgering people.

Time to fix my life; I lived without femoids for all my life, I think I can manage 3 more years.

Oh.

 

[Kirito3]

I fucking hate my life. In the last 3 years, my family forced me into med school here in Brasil. I was first in class for most of the time, but 95% of the guys are Chads and Chadlites; they mock me for anything, they cheat and brag that they won against me. They laugh when I cry, they fuck the stacys that I like. I am alone, locked in my room for all the time I am not at school. My family is 2000 km away from me and also do not give a shit, because it is OK to be lonely, it is OK not to have a girlfriend, because you will always be our number one even if you are not going well. "Because you need to graduate to make me proud", says my grandma, "you don't need women, only to study, I married and lost my virginity at 27, you can wait too". I only have two friends, but one (lets call her B) is married and ignores me. I crushed on the other girl (lets call her Green) that is whore-lite, and she tells me about her "dick friend" Chad, and keeps saying I am "unfuckable". I locked myself in my room yesterday, and I may be in the middle of a psychotic episode. I am only writing nonsensically, can't study, can't eat, sleep, etc. Yesterday, I challenged the cheaters from my class to a smallsword or pistol duel, but they started laughing and proceeded to call me insane to everybody present. Then I swore that I would quarter them someday for cheating and making me look bad. Also, I asked all the femoids in college for marriage, and they react the same as the boys. I hate my life, I can't stand being humiliated anymore, nor the loneliness.

Would anyone help me with ways to kill myself? I hate hate hate hate hate hate my life. I hate being this lonely, I just want the company of a wife. I thought that I could survive it, that I could finish this hell, save some money and buy me a wife. From Asia, from some poor rural family here in Brasil, from the gypsies, I would marry any girl. But I am broken. I can't take it anymore.

Suicide by cop, post ER
You already have a pistol and sowrd, go kill roasties until teh cops shoot you dead

 

[droktaar]

Suicide by cop, post ER
You already have a pistol and sowrd, go kill roasties until teh cops shoot you dead

I don't. My dad has some guns and I was planning to buy the swords if they accepted.