I've been thinking about my position in life a lot. And it seems as if the universe opens up new doors for me every once in a while, just to rape me afterwards and deny me any chance of happiness.
There's not much to talk about when you're a complete shut-in, And as we know most of our daily tasks in life are depended on our ability to socialise, which is something that I always had a problem with. This made me lose hope in having anything similar to a normal lifestyle because of autism so no matter how hard I'll try people (especially females) will sense that there is something wrong with me. And if I deny my autism and anxiety , then One mistake around normal people will make me look like an absolute prick or a complete moron. But if I do admit to my inner flaws. People will never stop reducing my value as a human being with their twisted decisive "sympathy" that in actuality is nothing more than mockery.
There is no way for me to be viewed as indifferent, and that just... Hurts, because all I ever wanted was to be viewed as a normal person with a normal life and friends. I guess my hatred is only a reflection of the things that I will never have or be after all. (fuckin copers ay?)
So if we assume we're in each others shoes , and With family ashamed of you. no friends around to lift you up from the rubble of loneliness. No gf to make you feel significant. No society that deems you worthy of anything just because you're male, short and ugly and no hope for a family of your own or a successful future or a career.
Do you still care where you end up in life anymore? ...
There's not much to talk about when you're a complete shut-in, And as we know most of our daily tasks in life are depended on our ability to socialise, which is something that I always had a problem with. This made me lose hope in having anything similar to a normal lifestyle because of autism so no matter how hard I'll try people (especially females) will sense that there is something wrong with me. And if I deny my autism and anxiety , then One mistake around normal people will make me look like an absolute prick or a complete moron. But if I do admit to my inner flaws. People will never stop reducing my value as a human being with their twisted decisive "sympathy" that in actuality is nothing more than mockery.
There is no way for me to be viewed as indifferent, and that just... Hurts, because all I ever wanted was to be viewed as a normal person with a normal life and friends. I guess my hatred is only a reflection of the things that I will never have or be after all. (fuckin copers ay?)
So if we assume we're in each others shoes , and With family ashamed of you. no friends around to lift you up from the rubble of loneliness. No gf to make you feel significant. No society that deems you worthy of anything just because you're male, short and ugly and no hope for a family of your own or a successful future or a career.
Do you still care where you end up in life anymore? ...
