TheGrayWolf
At heart, I am panda-bear|5'4|1/10|dc: slyfox100
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Either height or looks (but looks are much more important) can save you if you're not funny or interesting. But if you're interesting or funny, you can also be saved by good looks (and heights above 5'4", you men need to look VERY good).
I'm 5'3" and look so very ugly because of a disability I have (I was born with it, but it developed during puberty, I can walk normally and drive a car, but in society, in dating I'm disabled). Since I'm 11, I overhear people telling others I look "like a monster", "so ugly", "ugliest person I've ever seen", etc. – and most don't even try to hide it (strangers, mostly, too). Or they just give me weird glances, or even laugh, some have even literally taken pictures of me.
So yeah, I could be funny as hell, interesting and intelligent (I'm not any of those)... but they won't save me. Without the disability, I'd probably look good and be tall, but I have this disability now... so here we are. Girls were either disgusted by the sight of me (heard this too when I was in school, I'm 26 now though), or had nada interest in me. It's over for me. I have difficulty gaining muscles, but what will that do. Facial surgery won't help me and implants are extremely risky, and it's so expensive, spoke with 4 surgeons already. My head and facial bones don't allow for any surgery that will show good results. Head and face shape can't be changed, and both are really weird. Went to 2 stores with my mom today, people either made fun of me or looked at me weirdly.
Now what annoys me a lot, but my mom is right. Now my mom tells me I look good – but it's just to make me feel better (because she has contradicted herself, indirectly, in the past). She tells me, what I see in those "sick videos" (normal porn videos), is "not reality, because women aren't that good looking in real life. Good-looking women are very rare."
She also said, just hours ago, that "it [sex] is disgusting, and people [in society] are uglier than you think." Context: I rarely venture outside the house, expect to walk the dog.
She has lied to me in the past, said on the one hand, looks aren't important, on the other "sure I understand you want a pretty girlfriend. You can have on." the next week "no, you can't have one [because you're not that good looking." So, basically, she's indirectly trying to tell me, I'm too ugly/weird (and to some extent too short) for a pretty girlfriend (she doesn't explicitly say this, but that's her underhand message). She implies I should get an average one, but they are ugly imo (and also ugly to her, but I know she just means well and tries that I don't feel bad).
This makes me so sad, especially the part about "losing virginity between 16-20 is important"
I'm 5'3" and look so very ugly because of a disability I have (I was born with it, but it developed during puberty, I can walk normally and drive a car, but in society, in dating I'm disabled). Since I'm 11, I overhear people telling others I look "like a monster", "so ugly", "ugliest person I've ever seen", etc. – and most don't even try to hide it (strangers, mostly, too). Or they just give me weird glances, or even laugh, some have even literally taken pictures of me.
So yeah, I could be funny as hell, interesting and intelligent (I'm not any of those)... but they won't save me. Without the disability, I'd probably look good and be tall, but I have this disability now... so here we are. Girls were either disgusted by the sight of me (heard this too when I was in school, I'm 26 now though), or had nada interest in me. It's over for me. I have difficulty gaining muscles, but what will that do. Facial surgery won't help me and implants are extremely risky, and it's so expensive, spoke with 4 surgeons already. My head and facial bones don't allow for any surgery that will show good results. Head and face shape can't be changed, and both are really weird. Went to 2 stores with my mom today, people either made fun of me or looked at me weirdly.
Now what annoys me a lot, but my mom is right. Now my mom tells me I look good – but it's just to make me feel better (because she has contradicted herself, indirectly, in the past). She tells me, what I see in those "sick videos" (normal porn videos), is "not reality, because women aren't that good looking in real life. Good-looking women are very rare."
She also said, just hours ago, that "it [sex] is disgusting, and people [in society] are uglier than you think." Context: I rarely venture outside the house, expect to walk the dog.
She has lied to me in the past, said on the one hand, looks aren't important, on the other "sure I understand you want a pretty girlfriend. You can have on." the next week "no, you can't have one [because you're not that good looking." So, basically, she's indirectly trying to tell me, I'm too ugly/weird (and to some extent too short) for a pretty girlfriend (she doesn't explicitly say this, but that's her underhand message). She implies I should get an average one, but they are ugly imo (and also ugly to her, but I know she just means well and tries that I don't feel bad).
This makes me so sad, especially the part about "losing virginity between 16-20 is important"
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