"Lauren, this is not your fault. Coming from someone who has been doing this a very long time and knows first hand how many emails, messages through every different social media account, letters and comments you are receiving each and every day. It's absolutely impossible to even read let alone respond to them all. It's something I too feel bad about all the time. It's not in my nature at all to not respond to kind words or a request for advice or assistance. It's why we do ASMR in the first place! However it's something we have to accept if we are to even carry on making videos. It's literally one or the other but we don't have one without the other!
I'm so so sorry for your loss and for your friend and his family. You need a break, please take one and give yourself a big cuddle from me. Again, this is in no way your fault. You can't save everyone that's not what you're here for. You're here to just be you, shine light and love and help everyone to save themselves so that they can shine their light too. It's ok. Rest well beautiful girl <3 If you ever need any support on this journey of ours, I'm here XX"
I don't actually see the vudio because idgaf