Well, I guess its more of a combination of reasons. I'm actually 18, and still go to High School. I never say that I regret never having any sexual or romantic interaction in my 18 years of life, I like being alone, but sometimes I kind of feel left out when virtually everyone I know has had experience, while Im always the lonely one of the bunch.
During the summer, like right now, I pretty much stay on my computer or phone at home 24/7, and I rarely ever go out, and if I do, I never meet any friends, I just go somewhere with my family. I don't even have any friends in real life, there is nobody who I know who lives near me, who cares about me one bit. I only have a few acquaintances, and only a tiny bit of real friends who are all online. Ever since I got fucked over and went out onto home teaching, I barely have any contact with other people of my age, or any people at all, other than my mom and dad.
And believe me, Im not an introvert, in public places. Whenever I have the rare opportunity to socialize, I tend to talk the most. I speak out and I let myself be known in school. Many people know me, Im not the quiet kid in the back who no one knows. I always comment or reach out to others. However, I have never in my life had any real friends, I cant seem to make a connection with anyone, and the same is true for other people, nobody seems to ever care about me and reach out to me or make a connection with me. The more Im alone, the more I like to be alone, and the more I become introverted (Im just only now becoming more introverted) and fall deeper into the rabbit hole. I like to talk to people, but at the same time, I love being alone. This is why the internet is the best thing for me, as it facilitiates and fills my need for communication and sharing my thoughts with others, while also allowing me to be alone physically.
I have grown over the past few months and years, to simply hate society, and most people in it. The vast majority of people are simply retarded sheeps who only care about money and pleasure, and who have all the wrong interests and spend their time on complete bullshit. I have a very wide area of hobbies and interests, but practically nobody I know in real life shares any of my interests. I have yet to meet absolutely anyone in real life around here, who enjoys having real intelligent converstations or has any real interests and specializations who can share their knowledge back and forth with me. I don't attack others, and Im never mean to others just because I hate someone, but I hate society, and humanity in general, and this feeling has only been deepened in recent times.
Im very pessimistic (black pilled) and I know that things will only get worse. My only hope is of the eventual alien takeover of Earth, which should happen within the next 50 years.
And don't feed me that bullshit about going out there and meeting other people. Done that, been there, tried that. It never works, I can never find true connection to any people, or have any friends, let alone, a girlfriend, which Im almost certain that I will never find. Don't feed me that bullshit that "There is someone for everyone". This is a total lie to keep people braindead like practically everyone is. Im gonna continue trying to reach out to people and at least trying to socialize with other human beings, but soon enough, Im just gonna give up on this horrible thing known as life.
During the summer, like right now, I pretty much stay on my computer or phone at home 24/7, and I rarely ever go out, and if I do, I never meet any friends, I just go somewhere with my family. I don't even have any friends in real life, there is nobody who I know who lives near me, who cares about me one bit. I only have a few acquaintances, and only a tiny bit of real friends who are all online. Ever since I got fucked over and went out onto home teaching, I barely have any contact with other people of my age, or any people at all, other than my mom and dad.
And believe me, Im not an introvert, in public places. Whenever I have the rare opportunity to socialize, I tend to talk the most. I speak out and I let myself be known in school. Many people know me, Im not the quiet kid in the back who no one knows. I always comment or reach out to others. However, I have never in my life had any real friends, I cant seem to make a connection with anyone, and the same is true for other people, nobody seems to ever care about me and reach out to me or make a connection with me. The more Im alone, the more I like to be alone, and the more I become introverted (Im just only now becoming more introverted) and fall deeper into the rabbit hole. I like to talk to people, but at the same time, I love being alone. This is why the internet is the best thing for me, as it facilitiates and fills my need for communication and sharing my thoughts with others, while also allowing me to be alone physically.
I have grown over the past few months and years, to simply hate society, and most people in it. The vast majority of people are simply retarded sheeps who only care about money and pleasure, and who have all the wrong interests and spend their time on complete bullshit. I have a very wide area of hobbies and interests, but practically nobody I know in real life shares any of my interests. I have yet to meet absolutely anyone in real life around here, who enjoys having real intelligent converstations or has any real interests and specializations who can share their knowledge back and forth with me. I don't attack others, and Im never mean to others just because I hate someone, but I hate society, and humanity in general, and this feeling has only been deepened in recent times.
Im very pessimistic (black pilled) and I know that things will only get worse. My only hope is of the eventual alien takeover of Earth, which should happen within the next 50 years.
And don't feed me that bullshit about going out there and meeting other people. Done that, been there, tried that. It never works, I can never find true connection to any people, or have any friends, let alone, a girlfriend, which Im almost certain that I will never find. Don't feed me that bullshit that "There is someone for everyone". This is a total lie to keep people braindead like practically everyone is. Im gonna continue trying to reach out to people and at least trying to socialize with other human beings, but soon enough, Im just gonna give up on this horrible thing known as life.
