Venting Living with the knowledge that I can't rope ...

[Mr. Ponzi]

.. is probably one of the worst feelings in the world. I wanted to rope a while back and I couldn't go through with it. I will never be able to do it. Whatever shit life might throw at me, sickness, homelessness, lonelyness, old age... I will be there to live it.

 

[Deleted member 7448]

Same here. I don't even know why I can't do it, even though I fantasize about it often.

 

[LonelyButterfly]

That's your survival instinct. You know that you will be dead if you go through with it so your body tries to stop you from doing it in every way possible. I fantasize over my suicide so often but every time I think about that I won't breathe anymore, won't feel anything anymore, I get scared.

 

[Moustachcel]

Same here. I don't even know why I can't do it, even though I fantasize about it often.

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[Konon]

.. is probably one of the worst feelings in the world. I wanted to rope a while back and I couldn't go through with it. I will never be able to do it. Whatever shit life might throw at me, sickness, homelessness, lonelyness, old age... I will be there to live it.

I'm too low IQ to rope. Can't tie a noose for the life (or death) of me.

 

[Mainländer]

I always thought I couldn't do it but lately I'm not sure anymore. I'll do something about my depression, I think I reached my limit without meds/other treatments. Not willing to do talk therapy ever again though.