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I am short, autistic, retarded, ugly, skinny and socially inferior. I also have childhood trauma so im incredebly docile in social situations.
1. This happened at the beginning of 9th grade (A LITTLE BIT BEFORE LOCKDOWN). On the first day of school, we all signed conscent papers saying we understand the rules of school, then we quickly left. No one really talked to each other. Second day came along. I was the first to arrive.
Suddenly, 2 girls i never met before came in. When they came in, i didnt look at them. I had planned to be quiet and not bother anyone the entire school year. They asked eachother: "Did one else come in?" One came up to me, sitting in my chair as i was browising memes, and leaned in, saying in a high-pitched Voice: "hi. My name is A.", and handed me her hand for a friendly handshake.
When she said that, she definetly didn't seem too excited or pleased to meet me.
(The two girls that entered in will be called "A" and "B". Both of them tried to demasculate me throughout high school.)
After she was done introducing herself, my autism kicked in. I didn't respond back. Hell! I didn't even look up. Both of them audibly cringed at this. I could tell that little old me, already messed up my social status.
The same day, when the entire class arrived with the teacher, we started discussing about the seat arrangements, complaints and favours.
At one point foid A said out loud: "Ms! I wanna sit behind the funny kid!" I have no idea why She called me that. I looked back. She looked at me and pointed at me. I looked away in shame and submission to her like a faggot. The class started laughing.
Later on in the day, at one break, multiple girls came up to me. One sat in front of me, and some behind me. They all started asking me basic questions like im a 5 year old. They all spoke in a high-pitched tone, as If they were talking to a small dog. They would all giggle at my responses no matter how normal they would be.
At one point one slapped the back of my head for no reason. And ALL the girls started laughing at me.
I left that day wondering If i would be targeted for bullying. Little did i know i would be the main retard of the class.
2. I was a homework betabuxxer in 9 ninth grade. I regret every second of it. Heres how it happened:
This story takes place still on the first day.
Math period came along. I was really good at math, so i wanted to awnser a fairily easy question the maths teacher wrote on the chalkboard.
After writting the awnser on the chalkboard without saying anything, the foid that sat infront of me and asked me questions like im retarded said out loud: "What is it? Cat got your tounge?" To which everybody laughed. I didn't say anything because i KNEW kids were going to make fun of my aspie voice. I knew this girl was gonna dominate the social spectrum in class. And She indeed did as mentioned.
One girl started asking me (AS A JOKE): "y'know? (MY NAME), you could hand us homework from time to time..." To which i complied, thinking that i could be a white night.
Girls in my class used me for homework. I became their betabuxxer for food aswell. Everytime my mom packed a sandwich or an Apple of anything for lunch at school i gave it to girls. I was a simp. I no longer do this.
3. Eventually, what i thought that was females genuenly flirting with me, it turned out that it was just a mockery of me. Girls started talking to me just to make fun of me.
One thing they would do is that they would call my name, either in class or on break time, and then pretend i was heaing things.
They would throw stuff behind my back to annoy me.
I was no one to them. I still am just a betabuxxer to them.
I am nobody to any girl in my class.
4. I will now relate an emotionaly traumatic event that happened with A.
A got into and argument one day with another foid. Lets call this foid "C". Apparently A broke a plate in accident in the students' dorm. At this point i found out they were staying togheter in the same room.
Me, having a crush on A, automatically took her side like the loyal cuckold that i was.
In class, it was homeroom period. In this period we would talk about social problems that affected student in the class. Anyway, C told the teacher about the problem. She then resorted to calling C a bitch. The teacher got upset, aswell as me.
I suddenly stepped in, as a loyal betabuxxer, and insulted her back. I procceded to argue with C. And at one point, i slammed the desk with my fist out of anger. Everybody to laugh. Even the teacher made fun of me, and She was female. She said: "Now, now (MY NAME), no need to be a white night."
5. This event involves 2 new characters. 2 foids, that we will call "D" and "E".
I used to be a super religious Christian in 9th grade. I often took my rosary with me at school to pray regularly. It was breaktime before an important test. I studied a lot the night before. Calling on the Name of God for help on the test, D approached me and asked what was i doing. I didn't even look at here, instead ignoring her.
She got mad and took my rosary. B came and started making fun of me for praying. Autism kicked in, and i pushed D and spat on B out of anger. I grabbed the rosary back and started cussing the ever living hell out of D and B.
E was D' best friend, and she screamed at me: "HEY FUCKER! TOUCH HER AGAIN AND YOU'RE DEAD". I screamed at her back: "OI FUCK OFF!" To which She responded: "fuck you and your fucking rosary".
At his point, being already angry and hearing this discusting blasphemy, i procceded to stomp my way to her, after which i threatned i was gonna rape her KEK.
A came over to hit me in my shoulder to make me angry. I started to chase her out of the class because i was already angry and she played this mouse n' cat game where she kept annoying me, and i kept chasing her. I couldn't go back to prayer.
Out of frustration, i threw a chair at the wall and started crying loudly. I made my way out on the hall and over to a window. I looked at the birds chirping trying to calm myself down. A came again with the entire class. Pepole started filming me. She wanted to hit me again but i grabbed her by her hair and punched her in the gut, after which i screamed at her.
She started laughing at me saying im pathetic for trying to scare her, which geniuenly made me wanna jump from the window.
I went back to class sobbing. Everybody, especially the females, made fun of me, saying i overreacted.
I have mental trauma from my family and bullying, so i cry whenever made fun of.
This was the last straw of kindness i had for A. Ever since that day, i stopped liking her.
6. The class had PE. I was returning sweaty from the soccer field. And on my way back, C kicked me in the balls.
Kids and others around us started laughing.
Number 6 is short because theres nothing really important to say here.
7. This took place in 10th grade, specifically at the beggining of the year.
It was the the first day of a new pain filled ride. The entire class was supposed to walk to a room far off in the school building with out new books for the upcoming year.
I got there. Everybody, one by one, started grabing each book by book without difficulty. It was my turn. I started grabing them. As i was done and already heading out of the room, C came up to me and said in an annoying tone: "Oh! I see you're having some problems with carrying the books, (MY NAME)! Awwwwwww, are the books too heavy?" Everybody, mostly the girls, started laughing.
I could carry the books with 0 difficulty. She said that JUST to spite me.
It was at this point in life where i started hating women.
8. This event happened in 11th grade.
It was PE. Stormy day because it was winter. I was upset that day and cussed out a teacher. Me doing that made my head spin out of shame, so being so mentally weak, i started crying.
At PE, i didn't want to participate because i was do upset. D started talking to the teacher about what happened in class and the teacher confronted me. She started yelling at me.
I started crying and ran out like a fucking loser.
After the rest of the students finished class they came up to me. C called me a pussy.
9. It was the last day of 11th day. We held a graduation festive event to celebrate.
That year, i did exceptionaly well and got really good grades. Thus, me and some other students got prize money and diplomas (shitty ones to say the least lol).
The main event took place on the soccer field, where the money and diplomas were handed out. My turn came.
My autism kicked in, and out of social anxiety and fear of being seen, i didn't go to claim my prize. I knew pepole were going to make fun of the way i walked.
C came up to me and tried to pull me while calling me a chicken. She easily did so because im a skinny framelet. Everything happened so fast i didn't hesitate to punch her. I did and everybody called me insane and an asshole. But excuse me, i didn't ask to be pulled!
Later on that school day, C's friend (lets call her "F") came up to my desk and slammed her backpack to scare me, to which she succeded. C's friends and other females in my class resorted to calling me names.
10. I just started 12th grade, and girls are already making fun of me.
I am short, autistic, retarded, ugly, skinny and socially inferior. I also have childhood trauma so im incredebly docile in social situations.
1. This happened at the beginning of 9th grade (A LITTLE BIT BEFORE LOCKDOWN). On the first day of school, we all signed conscent papers saying we understand the rules of school, then we quickly left. No one really talked to each other. Second day came along. I was the first to arrive.
Suddenly, 2 girls i never met before came in. When they came in, i didnt look at them. I had planned to be quiet and not bother anyone the entire school year. They asked eachother: "Did one else come in?" One came up to me, sitting in my chair as i was browising memes, and leaned in, saying in a high-pitched Voice: "hi. My name is A.", and handed me her hand for a friendly handshake.
When she said that, she definetly didn't seem too excited or pleased to meet me.
(The two girls that entered in will be called "A" and "B". Both of them tried to demasculate me throughout high school.)
After she was done introducing herself, my autism kicked in. I didn't respond back. Hell! I didn't even look up. Both of them audibly cringed at this. I could tell that little old me, already messed up my social status.
The same day, when the entire class arrived with the teacher, we started discussing about the seat arrangements, complaints and favours.
At one point foid A said out loud: "Ms! I wanna sit behind the funny kid!" I have no idea why She called me that. I looked back. She looked at me and pointed at me. I looked away in shame and submission to her like a faggot. The class started laughing.
Later on in the day, at one break, multiple girls came up to me. One sat in front of me, and some behind me. They all started asking me basic questions like im a 5 year old. They all spoke in a high-pitched tone, as If they were talking to a small dog. They would all giggle at my responses no matter how normal they would be.
At one point one slapped the back of my head for no reason. And ALL the girls started laughing at me.
I left that day wondering If i would be targeted for bullying. Little did i know i would be the main retard of the class.
2. I was a homework betabuxxer in 9 ninth grade. I regret every second of it. Heres how it happened:
This story takes place still on the first day.
Math period came along. I was really good at math, so i wanted to awnser a fairily easy question the maths teacher wrote on the chalkboard.
After writting the awnser on the chalkboard without saying anything, the foid that sat infront of me and asked me questions like im retarded said out loud: "What is it? Cat got your tounge?" To which everybody laughed. I didn't say anything because i KNEW kids were going to make fun of my aspie voice. I knew this girl was gonna dominate the social spectrum in class. And She indeed did as mentioned.
One girl started asking me (AS A JOKE): "y'know? (MY NAME), you could hand us homework from time to time..." To which i complied, thinking that i could be a white night.
Girls in my class used me for homework. I became their betabuxxer for food aswell. Everytime my mom packed a sandwich or an Apple of anything for lunch at school i gave it to girls. I was a simp. I no longer do this.
3. Eventually, what i thought that was females genuenly flirting with me, it turned out that it was just a mockery of me. Girls started talking to me just to make fun of me.
One thing they would do is that they would call my name, either in class or on break time, and then pretend i was heaing things.
They would throw stuff behind my back to annoy me.
I was no one to them. I still am just a betabuxxer to them.
I am nobody to any girl in my class.
4. I will now relate an emotionaly traumatic event that happened with A.
A got into and argument one day with another foid. Lets call this foid "C". Apparently A broke a plate in accident in the students' dorm. At this point i found out they were staying togheter in the same room.
Me, having a crush on A, automatically took her side like the loyal cuckold that i was.
In class, it was homeroom period. In this period we would talk about social problems that affected student in the class. Anyway, C told the teacher about the problem. She then resorted to calling C a bitch. The teacher got upset, aswell as me.
I suddenly stepped in, as a loyal betabuxxer, and insulted her back. I procceded to argue with C. And at one point, i slammed the desk with my fist out of anger. Everybody to laugh. Even the teacher made fun of me, and She was female. She said: "Now, now (MY NAME), no need to be a white night."
5. This event involves 2 new characters. 2 foids, that we will call "D" and "E".
I used to be a super religious Christian in 9th grade. I often took my rosary with me at school to pray regularly. It was breaktime before an important test. I studied a lot the night before. Calling on the Name of God for help on the test, D approached me and asked what was i doing. I didn't even look at here, instead ignoring her.
She got mad and took my rosary. B came and started making fun of me for praying. Autism kicked in, and i pushed D and spat on B out of anger. I grabbed the rosary back and started cussing the ever living hell out of D and B.
E was D' best friend, and she screamed at me: "HEY FUCKER! TOUCH HER AGAIN AND YOU'RE DEAD". I screamed at her back: "OI FUCK OFF!" To which She responded: "fuck you and your fucking rosary".
At his point, being already angry and hearing this discusting blasphemy, i procceded to stomp my way to her, after which i threatned i was gonna rape her KEK.
A came over to hit me in my shoulder to make me angry. I started to chase her out of the class because i was already angry and she played this mouse n' cat game where she kept annoying me, and i kept chasing her. I couldn't go back to prayer.
Out of frustration, i threw a chair at the wall and started crying loudly. I made my way out on the hall and over to a window. I looked at the birds chirping trying to calm myself down. A came again with the entire class. Pepole started filming me. She wanted to hit me again but i grabbed her by her hair and punched her in the gut, after which i screamed at her.
She started laughing at me saying im pathetic for trying to scare her, which geniuenly made me wanna jump from the window.
I went back to class sobbing. Everybody, especially the females, made fun of me, saying i overreacted.
I have mental trauma from my family and bullying, so i cry whenever made fun of.
This was the last straw of kindness i had for A. Ever since that day, i stopped liking her.
6. The class had PE. I was returning sweaty from the soccer field. And on my way back, C kicked me in the balls.
Kids and others around us started laughing.
Number 6 is short because theres nothing really important to say here.
7. This took place in 10th grade, specifically at the beggining of the year.
It was the the first day of a new pain filled ride. The entire class was supposed to walk to a room far off in the school building with out new books for the upcoming year.
I got there. Everybody, one by one, started grabing each book by book without difficulty. It was my turn. I started grabing them. As i was done and already heading out of the room, C came up to me and said in an annoying tone: "Oh! I see you're having some problems with carrying the books, (MY NAME)! Awwwwwww, are the books too heavy?" Everybody, mostly the girls, started laughing.
I could carry the books with 0 difficulty. She said that JUST to spite me.
It was at this point in life where i started hating women.
8. This event happened in 11th grade.
It was PE. Stormy day because it was winter. I was upset that day and cussed out a teacher. Me doing that made my head spin out of shame, so being so mentally weak, i started crying.
At PE, i didn't want to participate because i was do upset. D started talking to the teacher about what happened in class and the teacher confronted me. She started yelling at me.
I started crying and ran out like a fucking loser.
After the rest of the students finished class they came up to me. C called me a pussy.
9. It was the last day of 11th day. We held a graduation festive event to celebrate.
That year, i did exceptionaly well and got really good grades. Thus, me and some other students got prize money and diplomas (shitty ones to say the least lol).
The main event took place on the soccer field, where the money and diplomas were handed out. My turn came.
My autism kicked in, and out of social anxiety and fear of being seen, i didn't go to claim my prize. I knew pepole were going to make fun of the way i walked.
C came up to me and tried to pull me while calling me a chicken. She easily did so because im a skinny framelet. Everything happened so fast i didn't hesitate to punch her. I did and everybody called me insane and an asshole. But excuse me, i didn't ask to be pulled!
Later on that school day, C's friend (lets call her "F") came up to my desk and slammed her backpack to scare me, to which she succeded. C's friends and other females in my class resorted to calling me names.
10. I just started 12th grade, and girls are already making fun of me.
