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Doomer Guy
Deleted my account because this site is so dumb...
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After thinking about it, I realized why I can't study anymore, why I can't enjoy activities that I used to love in the past (video games, TV, etc.): because I have no social life.
It's truly impossible to find a sense of purpose without interacting socially with anyone. And without a sense of purpose, it is impossible to enjoy anything in life and the only solution becomes the rope.
I used to be an avid gamer when I was 12 years old because I had a great online friend then. If you think about it, the most popular video games are the multiplayer ones. Because solo video games have no replayability in general, once you beat all the levels and discovered all the secrets, the game no longer has any interest to you. But multiplayer video games on the other hand have potential for infinite replayability due to the social aspect.
Studying. For what? Just to become a 9-to-5 wageslave that's still going to be a forever alone KHHV? No thanks, I'd rather rope.
If I had a gf to study with, or if I had the guarantee that I'd be able to get a gf by studying had enough, I'd probably be super motivated. But no.
I struggle so much to study that it surprises me to know I'm still keeping pace...
TV is also less enjoyable if you're alone because let's be honest: you're a fakecel or volcel if you never wished to watch a movie on a sofa under the blankets during a cold winter day with a gf in your arms while drinking tea or hot chocolate.
Self-improvement is absolutely pointless without an end goal. If no one is going to like you anyways, why would you even practice it? Why would you even go to the gym and try to get muscles? Why would you try to improve your personality? You can't find a solid reason to justify it so you most likely won't do it.
That's why I have zero motivation. That's why I don't give a fuck about anything. That's why I can't enjoy any hobby anymore. Because when you don't have a single person to share anything with, you have no reason or purpose to do anything, you don't get enough dopamine by practicing any activity, you might as well just live in an imaginary world for the rest of the day (which is the only thing I still do in my free time). This is probably the strongest suicidefuel for me
TL;DR Everything in a life without socialization is pointless and unenjoyable. Even the best hobbies are dull if you can't share them with anyone, so you might as well just daydream during your free time to give yourself a false sense of socialization, instead of self-improving or working hard on something.
It's truly impossible to find a sense of purpose without interacting socially with anyone. And without a sense of purpose, it is impossible to enjoy anything in life and the only solution becomes the rope.
I used to be an avid gamer when I was 12 years old because I had a great online friend then. If you think about it, the most popular video games are the multiplayer ones. Because solo video games have no replayability in general, once you beat all the levels and discovered all the secrets, the game no longer has any interest to you. But multiplayer video games on the other hand have potential for infinite replayability due to the social aspect.
Studying. For what? Just to become a 9-to-5 wageslave that's still going to be a forever alone KHHV? No thanks, I'd rather rope.
If I had a gf to study with, or if I had the guarantee that I'd be able to get a gf by studying had enough, I'd probably be super motivated. But no.
I struggle so much to study that it surprises me to know I'm still keeping pace...
TV is also less enjoyable if you're alone because let's be honest: you're a fakecel or volcel if you never wished to watch a movie on a sofa under the blankets during a cold winter day with a gf in your arms while drinking tea or hot chocolate.
Self-improvement is absolutely pointless without an end goal. If no one is going to like you anyways, why would you even practice it? Why would you even go to the gym and try to get muscles? Why would you try to improve your personality? You can't find a solid reason to justify it so you most likely won't do it.
That's why I have zero motivation. That's why I don't give a fuck about anything. That's why I can't enjoy any hobby anymore. Because when you don't have a single person to share anything with, you have no reason or purpose to do anything, you don't get enough dopamine by practicing any activity, you might as well just live in an imaginary world for the rest of the day (which is the only thing I still do in my free time). This is probably the strongest suicidefuel for me
TL;DR Everything in a life without socialization is pointless and unenjoyable. Even the best hobbies are dull if you can't share them with anyone, so you might as well just daydream during your free time to give yourself a false sense of socialization, instead of self-improving or working hard on something.