Blackpill Life is so dull and I act like an old man

[RopeMaXXer]

I think life has finally defeated me. I am starting to care less and less.
My behaviour is deteriorating and whenever I'm around my family (our relationship isn't bad) I just wave then away and get annoyed by them talking.

My poor mother still gets really happy when she sees me and I feel so terrible for not being able to cherish these moments.
I seek peace and seem to be able to think about nothing more and more lately.
My passions are lost and by the virtue of not finding anything fun I just study and self improve to pass time.

It has become apparent now that my lifelong friend is avoiding me and I am considering confronting him. We go way back and the relationship deserves that much.
I work long hours and don't even have time to reflect on how lonely I am.
Even if I was good looking I have no mechanism to obtain women. Its a joke

Life is so uneventful and slowly chipping away at my vitality. Even if I do seek excitement or do anything eventful I just feel its a waste of time

 

[Deleted member 60]

I'm feeling the same bro.
Things I used to enjoy feel like a chore. I only look forward to getting drunk/high.

 

[Deleted member 11032]

Why's your friend avoiding you bro?

 

[Deleted member 17180]

My poor mother still gets really happy when she sees me and I feel so terrible for not being able to cherish these moments.

It's the same for me and it always breaks my heart. And she still is always so nice to me just like my grandma. I don't deserve them, i don't deserve anyone

 

[RopeMaXXer]

Why's your friend avoiding you bro?

We had our spats in past I can point to, or it's something unintentional because he does grab beer with me but it always has to be initiated by me.
I think the concept of not being his friend hurts more than what it practicaly means. Because it already happened anyway

 

[GameDevCel]

know how you feel, life fucking sucks

also i really like your avi

 

[TheGoodGuy]

I can relate to a lot of the things you talk about, even though I had severe depression in my teenage years I still miss those years because I was still able to feel my emotion where now I don´t feel anything. And back then life was of course miserable but I had amazing exciting experiences now everything is so mundane and boring, every day is the same that over and over again almost like the movie Groundhog Day there is nothing that resembles "life" in my life only existence.

Btw how old are you?

 

[RopeMaXXer]

Btw how old are you?

Solid chunk into my 20s

 

[Deleted member 6214]

How do you even find the motivation to study? I'm in the same situation as you but to pass the time I just play video games and eat junk food.

 

[TheGoodGuy]

Solid chunk into my 20s

My condolences, life is over at 20 after that it´s just a boring mundane grown up life with no exciting experiences ever again.
I am turning 25 next month.

 

[Deleted member 60]

I think life has finally defeated me. I am starting to care less and less.
My behaviour is deteriorating and whenever I'm around my family (our relationship isn't bad) I just wave then away and get annoyed by them talking.

lol I do the same thing. I just hate dealing with people right now. I would rather post on this forum than go chill at my friend's place. Like I don't want to talk about anything besides my problems tbh

 

[RopeMaXXer]

How do you even find the motivation to study? I'm in the same situation as you but to pass the time I just play video games and eat junk food.

It's a habit I built over course 3 painful years.
My dopamine receptors were so fried initially that I legitimately couldn't focus for more than 5 mins.
It's why I dropped out of college.
Now I at least read couple of pages of sicp despite being dead tired

 

[Deleted member 11032]

We had our spats in past I can point to, or it's something unintentional because he does grab beer with me but it always has to be initiated by me.
I think the concept of not being his friend hurts more than what it practicaly means. Because it already happened anyway

You should cut him out your life tbh if he isn't making an effort.

 

[Insomniac]

Life was so enjoyable until I hit puberty. I wish I could go back to those days.

Agepill has well and truly destroyed me.

 

[RopeMaXXer]

You should cut him out your life tbh if he isn't making an effort.

There's no "cutting out of life"
It already happened years ago, I just didn't realize and me sometimes lingering around him gave me feeling like it wasn't over.
Whatever. Really, the person I was the best friend with only shares this guys name and piercing eye color

 

[Cybersex is our hope]

I think life has finally defeated me. I am starting to care less and less.
My behaviour is deteriorating and whenever I'm around my family (our relationship isn't bad) I just wave then away and get annoyed by them talking.

My poor mother still gets really happy when she sees me and I feel so terrible for not being able to cherish these moments.
I seek peace and seem to be able to think about nothing more and more lately.
My passions are lost and by the virtue of not finding anything fun I just study and self improve to pass time.

It has become apparent now that my lifelong friend is avoiding me and I am considering confronting him. We go way back and the relationship deserves that much.
I work long hours and don't even have time to reflect on how lonely I am.
Even if I was good looking I have no mechanism to obtain women. Its a joke

Life is so uneventful and slowly chipping away at my vitality. Even if I do seek excitement or do anything eventful I just feel its a waste of time

Same. I was full of dreams 4-5 years ago (goals related to sports, university, relationships, jobs) and now i'm going down to the lowest effort possible. I still practice a lot of sports but it's becoming hard to go on since i don't have the results i'd like to (as St. Elliot i'm frustrated i never managed to really excel at something). Also university is the shittiest stuff ever happened to me. I started with a 5 years degree only to change it to a 3 years degree after having failed the first 4 years (i'm still striving to end this crap, i'll graduate in this 3 years degree in July and i'll be like 25 years old lol). Going to uni just makes me feel even more oldcel and potentially totally failed. If i managed to find a stupid job after my graduation chances are i won't go on studying and just LDAR waiting for the end of the West

I can relate to a lot of the things you talk about, even though I had severe depression in my teenage years I still miss those years because I was still able to feel my emotion where now I don´t feel anything. And back then life was of course miserable but I had amazing exciting experiences now everything is so mundane and boring, every day is the same that over and over again almost like the movie Groundhog Day there is nothing that resembles "life" in my life only existence.

Btw how old are you?

You were lucky to have a good teen era to remember. I was in a stupidly difficult high school that i loathed and practiced that faggot shit called AIkido that made me lose 6 years that could have been used to start earlier to practice an actual martial art.
BTW bad marks, few friends, ugly and 0 feedback from any foid

 

[Michael15651]

You should beat up your friend for the sake of friendship.

 

[Hapacelricecel]

Op,I think you are likely clinically depressed.Maybe seek professional help.Wish you good luck.

 

[RopeMaXXer]

Op,I think you are likely clinically depressed.Maybe seek professional help.Wish you good luck.

I was depressed during my teens this is different

 

[Hapacelricecel]

I was depressed during my teens this is different

Just take a break.Maybe get a pet.They are great for incels.You need some love in life.I'm sorry we are not gonna get it from human race.

 

[superighteous]

My poor mother still gets really happy when she sees me and I feel so terrible for not being able to cherish these moments.

Fuck. That hits.

 

[HardToSwallow]

I think life has finally defeated me. I am starting to care less and less.
My behaviour is deteriorating and whenever I'm around my family (our relationship isn't bad) I just wave then away and get annoyed by them talking.

My poor mother still gets really happy when she sees me and I feel so terrible for not being able to cherish these moments.
I seek peace and seem to be able to think about nothing more and more lately.
My passions are lost and by the virtue of not finding anything fun I just study and self improve to pass time.

It has become apparent now that my lifelong friend is avoiding me and I am considering confronting him. We go way back and the relationship deserves that much.
I work long hours and don't even have time to reflect on how lonely I am.
Even if I was good looking I have no mechanism to obtain women. Its a joke

Life is so uneventful and slowly chipping away at my vitality. Even if I do seek excitement or do anything eventful I just feel its a waste of time

I'm sorry to hear that dude. I can relate with the lustlessness, it's like all color and taste have disappeared from life. Finding out that the most desirable thing in life is so incredibly shallow and that people are mere animals, guided by primal instincts really hit me hard. I have a calm understanding of the world now and from here I can set goals I guess.

 

[Notgoingtomakeit]

It is dull and boring because life is meaningless. The only people who are truly happy are those with super low IQ. They can be happy doing neurotypical stuff day in and day out in life.

 

[Cuyen]

Solid chunk into my 20s

you know its over when you feel like old in your 20s..

 

[SchrodingersDick]

Same man. I feel like an old man with no life left in me and I’m only 25.. loneliness ages you 10x faster literally

 

[Inceldo]

Life defeated me a long time ago

 

[GlitterSunThaumiel]

life is over at 20 after that it´s just a boring mundane grown up life with no exciting experiences ever again.

Life have never been any exciting to me. I've been living as a old-man since i developed self-awareness. Being alive fucking sucks, i can't understand why people love to proceate so much.

 

[TheRealChincel]

My condolences, life is over at 20 after that it´s just a boring mundane grown up life with no exciting experiences ever again.
I am turning 25 next month.

So true, college is the last hurrah for normies whereas for us, it’s where we realize our ship never even came to port.

 

[Cuyen]

My condolences, life is over at 20 after that it´s just a boring mundane grown up life with no exciting experiences ever again.
I am turning 25 next month.

Life is never began if you didnt lose your virginit at your 10s tbbh

 

[Wonder]

To be honest I feel this way as well. I don't know what I'll do after university as I'll never have a family to support with the money. I think I'll work to save up enough money to live off of for a while, then write my book as a full-day "job", publish it somehow and perhaps then I'll just find a tall building with roof access.

 

[Deleted member 15752]

Fuck dude, my iq getting lower and lower.