LDAR Life is dogshit

[MonkeyInaT34]

Feeling like absolute shit recently, I'm getting bored of coping, tired of everyday being the same, it's an endless cycle of misery.

Yeah sure, I can always do something different, and sometimes I do, play a different game, watch a different anime, goon to different hentai, eat different slop, but that doesn't change the fact that I'm still here, in the same place, going absolutely fucking nowhere in life.

Well, I won't go anywhere in life anyways, I have no future, nothing to look forward to, yeah sure I'm gonna be employed soon, but what's the big fucking deal? The workplace is barely any different from highschool from what I've read, only here you're slaving away just to get through and survive.

My sleep schedule is also in smithereens because I can't seem to give a fuck about it anymore, It's currently 4 in the morning as I type this, but what's the difference if I sleep now, or this afternoon, or tonight, there is no difference, I'm still gonna wake up to my usual routine of cope, cope, and repeat.

I don't know how some of you guys do it, because I can't, I can't handle living like this anymore, I'm not saying I'm gonna rope, this is just a vent, but I know one day I'm gonna get so fucking tired of it I'd rather be dead.

 

[zd60]

a bunch of drugs help

 

[H8mychudlife]

Gotta keep trudging on

 

[MonkeyInaT34]

a bunch of drugs help

That would be plausible if I lived in the U.S, nicotine is the only thing I have access to but I quit due to lung problems. Nicotine also sucks because it's just short term relief, so I can't really cope with drugs.

 

[MonkeyInaT34]

Gotta keep trudging on

Trudging along a path that leads straight to a dead end

 

[H8mychudlife]

Trudging along a path that leads straight to a dead end

I am on that path as well mang, I am so fucking screwed. Imagine this when you're 40 bro

 

[zd60]

That would be plausible if I lived in the U.S, nicotine is the only thing I have access to but I quit due to lung problems. Nicotine also sucks because it's just short term relief, so I can't really cope with drugs.

fair, i use a lot of nicotine myself just pouches very short term but is something i guess

 

[MonkeyInaT34]

I am on that path as well mang, I am so fucking screwed. Imagine this when you're 40 bro

Not even 20 yet, I can't imagine living to 40, that's another 2 decades of coping

 

[MonkeyInaT34]

fair, i use a lot of nicotine myself just pouches very short term but is something i guess

I like the few minutes of pleasure from cigarettes, but after I just feel like shit, which is why I don't think it's worth it anymore, I can't afford to constantly smoke, and the few minutes of pleasure before the crash is worthless.

 

[Itsoverm8]

a bunch of drugs help

I need drugs

 

[zd60]

I like the few minutes of pleasure from cigarettes, but after I just feel like shit, which is why I don't think it's worth it anymore, I can't afford to constantly smoke, and the few minutes of pleasure before the crash is worthless.

yeah its expensive i quit sometimes when i have no cash or my cash goes to better drugs but I always feel like shit regardless

 

[Spooky_Heejin]

My sleep schedule is also in smithereens because I can't seem to give a fuck about it anymore, It's currently 4 in the morning as I type this, but what's the difference if I sleep now, or this afternoon, or tonight, there is no difference, I'm still gonna wake up to my usual routine of cope, cope, and repeat.

Literally me.

I don't know how some of you guys do it, because I can't, I can't handle living like this anymore, I'm not saying I'm gonna rope, this is just a vent, but I know one day I'm gonna get so fucking tired of it I'd rather be dead.

Me too, one day I'll get sick of this and just blow my head off.

 

[satima]

Not even 20 yet, I can't imagine living to 40, that's another 2 decades of coping

 

[starcrapoo]

Same

I feel run down and I want the year to end already

I don't wanna cope with alcohol either as I know that would just make things worst. I might feel better during the moment but afterwards I'll feel 10x worst.

 

[MonkeyInaT34]

Same

I feel run down and I want the year to end already

I don't wanna cope with alcohol either as I know that would just make things worst. I might feel better during the moment but afterwards I'll feel 10x worst.

Same reason I quit smoking, you get a good buzz for some time, then once it wears out you feel like dogshit, I could spend my money on better copes.

It is almost the end of the year, you won't need to wait long, for me, it all went by without a trace, I'm still here, still living the same routine, time doesn't matter to me anymore because I'm not waiting for anything.

 

[MonkeyInaT34]

Me too, one day I'll get sick of this and just blow my head off.

It's all so tiring