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Its so fucking over nothing can entertain me anymore
They're fun but they destroy your life so hard. Even just alcohol, I was super depressed for years before becoming an alcoholic, but I had no idea just how far you can fall and how much worse life can get after alcohol. Years later, after being sober for so long, and my life is still fucked because of alcohol.Ecstasy said:Have you tried drugs?
I know, but I cope with telling myself that I had no happy moments before so I just win when getting high or drunk. At the moment I try to find a balance between incel hedonism and still eating healthy and doing sports so I have an outcome of zero or at least a few positive points.anon1822 said:They're fun but they destroy your life so hard. Even just alcohol, I was super depressed for years before becoming an alcoholic, but I had no idea just how far you can fall and how much worse life can get after alcohol. Years later, after being sober for so long, and my life is still fucked because of alcohol.
It's great that you're mindful of your health, that's a very good thing. I hope you can eventually kick the drug habit though, it's harmful in so many ways other than just your health. But a step at a time is fine, just keep taking care of your health, eating right and lifting.Ecstasy said:I know, but I cope with telling myself that I had no happy moments before so I just win when getting high or drunk. At the moment I try to find a balance between incel hedonism and still eating healthy and doing sports so I have an outcome of zero or at least a few positive points.
Damn bro, so many people always tell me this but I never see a problem in it. Seems like I really have a problem. Sure, Im not the kind of guy thast blasts a paycheck in one weekend, is late to work or stays awake 3 days but its still a habit... Thanks for your concern, it means a lot to me.anon1822 said:It's great that you're mindful of your health, that's a very good thing. I hope you can eventually kick the drug habit though, it's harmful in so many ways other than just your health. But a step at a time is fine, just keep taking care of your health, eating right and lifting.
You do seem to have a pretty good attitude since you said you eat right and exercise, that's paramount. But the damage is actually very hard to see when you're doing it, only after a certain time (or when you stop) you realize "holy shit, what has happened to my life?". Thing is, you're still young now so life is still relatively good. I mean, I'm sure you're suffering a lot and are in a lot of mental anguish in general since you have resorted to drugs, but how aging and drugs work is that what you thought was bad before will seem like nothing after a while. So in a few years you look back and you're like 30 and you realize that those years should've been spent trying to build a better life for yourself and your future years, because life gets worse as you age if you don't dedicate it to building up a healthy and comfortable life.Ecstasy said:Damn bro, so many people always tell me this but I never see a problem in it. Seems like I really have a problem. Sure, Im not the kind of guy thast blasts a paycheck in one weekend, is late to work or stays awake 3 days but its still a habit... Thanks for your concern, it means a lot to me.
I know, sadly I always switch between 2 moods (I bet this is very common here): Either I try to go completely monk mode, read books, stay off my phone, lift, eat like a saint, take vitamin supplements and shit. And one day when everything goes to shit I ruin my progress by going on a drug binge, being a fucking asshole towards my internet friends or fuck up things on purpose. This up and down is worse than the bitcoin chart not even lying... If I can tone down my drug use to just weed I could live with that. I just have watch out not to get caught, law enforcement is the biggest danger of drug use in my opinion. Or at least for me.anon1822 said:You do seem to have a pretty good attitude since you said you eat right and exercise, that's paramount. But the damage is actually very hard to see when you're doing it, only after a certain time (or when you stop) you realize "holy shit, what has happened to my life?". Thing is, you're still young now so life is still relatively good. I mean, I'm sure you're suffering a lot and are in a lot of mental anguish in general since you have resorted to drugs, but how aging and drugs work is that what you thought was bad before will seem like nothing after a while. So in a few years you look back and you're like 30 and you realize that those years should've been spent trying to build a better life for yourself and your future years, because life gets worse as you age if you don't dedicate it to building up a healthy and comfortable life.
Yeah I wish you all the best too mate. I can relate to this fluctuation in moods, attitudes and motivation. Hell I don't even really practice what i preach if you know what I mean, I'm in a rotting, depressed mood 99% of the time. But we all have our flaws, the key is trying to pick up the pieces, forgiving yourself, and one day just wiping the slate clean and deciding that from now on, despite all the shit you've been through and all the pain, from now on you decide that each day you're going to do a tiny little bit better. Don't have to fix it all in one day, but slowly just being focused and adding to your life bit by bit can help.Ecstasy said:I know, sadly I always switch between 2 moods (I bet this is very common here): Either I try to go completely monk mode, read books, stay off my phone, lift, eat like a saint, take vitamin supplements and shit. And one day when everything goes to shit I ruin my progress by going on a drug binge, being a fucking asshole towards my internet friends or fuck up things on purpose. This up and down is worse than the bitcoin chart not even lying... If I can tone down my drug use to just weed I could live with that. I just have watch out not to get caught, law enforcement is the biggest danger of drug use in my opinion. Or at least for me.
Thank you for the long text, I always enjoy talking to you. I wish you all the best my friend.
Yes me too. I rot away most of my time, but since that isn't worth typing down I only talk about the positive stuff I do which makes me appear probably way more stable than I am. But I do it since I think its important for people like us, we should never forget that misery has no rock bottom. No matter how shit you feel, how bad your life is, it can always get worse if you let it happen. And if you don't kill yourself (lets be honest, most of us won't) you should at least get as comfortable with yourself as you can.anon1822 said:Hell I don't even really practice what i preach if you know what I mean, I'm in a rotting, depressed mood 99% of the time.
Yep, great attitude. All you gotta do now is just stick to this attitude and keep improving your life bit by tiny bit.Ecstasy said:Yes me too. I rot away most of my time, but since that isn't worth typing down I only talk about the positive stuff I do which makes me appear probably way more stable than I am. But I do it since I think its important for people like us, we should never forget that misery has no rock bottom. No matter how shit you feel, how bad your life is, it can always get worse if you let it happen. And if you don't kill yourself (lets be honest, most of us won't) you should at least get as comfortable with yourself as you can.
I try to find the balance for steady progressanon1822 said:Yep, great attitude. All you gotta do now is just stick to this attitude and keep improving your life bit by tiny bit.