Venting Life as a dopaminecel

[dopamine]

Theres a profound and immediately obvious depression that captures me the moment I wake up and realize what sort of existence I live in relationship to the world around me. There’s this constant tension psychically and mentally straining every action or possible action I consider.

right now my life mission is to get a prescription for Xans or kpins. I remember taking them in high school and it was the first time I felt this surreal numbness hugging my body. A symphony of pleasure shielding me from myself. I used alcohol and nicotine to cope most of my life but it ruined my neurological and gut health ( most likely, I don’t have insurance so idk ). And I believe I have alcoholic neuropathy. It’s not a death sentence if I abstain from alcohol, nicotine, and caffeine.

To live this life sober any longer is unacceptable. I need dopamine. I need to feel nothing. I need something I’m lacking.
I hate work. I hate myself. I hate eating. I hate moving my body in time and space. I hate knowing that I’ll never love or be loved by another.

Im a dopaminecel

 

[nevergetsanybetter]

High iq thread. yeah life for us incels is all about copes

 

[VPSCel]

I never drifted towards anything like that really myself... but I guess since I never got hooked on nicotine like everyone did in my high school,I never even went to weed and nothing else like Xans or coke. I was too antisocial to get to that point anyways,doubt I'd wanna do it regardless though.

 

[AtrociousCitizen]

I'm deficient on dopamine.

 

[Aspergasm]

I’ve had the same issue and found that smoking weed and gymcelling keeps my rodent brain satisfied. Not sure if it works for everyone though.

 

[soyboycel]

I’m an adhdcel and it’s brutal

 

[dopamine]

I never drifted towards anything like that really myself... but I guess since I never got hooked on nicotine like everyone did in my high school,I never even went to weed and nothing else like Xans or coke. I was too antisocial to get to that point anyways,doubt I'd wanna do it regardless though.

If you’ve never experienced it then consider yourself lucky

 

[VPSCel]

If you’ve never experienced it then consider yourself lucky

Too bad I'm a porn addict atm and addicted to caffeine sorta.

 

[dopamine]

I’ve had the same issue and found that smoking weed and gymcelling keeps my rodent brain satisfied. Not sure if it works for everyone though.

Ya gymcelling helps me slightly but I have to go consistently for it to work. When I was an alcoholic I worked out 6 times a weeks and felt great until I started to develop health problems. Now I just workout 2-3 times a week and it’s hard to feel the benefits you get mentally

 

[dopamine]

Too bad I'm a porn addict atm and addicted to caffeine sorta.

Ya I still drink caffeine 3 times a week (even though I shouldn’t because of health issues) and jerk off almost every day. It’s literally the only pleasure life can afford to give me. It’s probably the only thing keeping me sane

 

[KeepCoping]

Codeine is better.