I just lie in bed all day, no friends, no gf. All my classmates that I considered friends are doing phds and left me behind. Sometimes I feel fustrated or angry. But even from being 17 (12 years ago) I started learning emotion regulation really well. Feelings just wash over me like it's water. It's not like I don't care, but it's more like surrendering to the feelings. My body sometimes resists this because it wants to fight, but at the same time I can accept that I'm exhausted and that the things I have done so far are good enough.
You know, I will reveal to you that there is a deeper ground to life. We may seem lost, but there will always be an inner warmth that will catch us. I know there is a lot of cruelty in the world, but I can also promise that something pure exists. In the substrates there is a lot of sorrow, but it is also our true nature. Even small things, like having done something meaningful for others, are all eternal. I know life might seem lonely, but ultimately everyone pays the price for this. Love does exists, but for some reason God hides the divine. Only in sorrow, there is true freedom.
You know, I will reveal to you that there is a deeper ground to life. We may seem lost, but there will always be an inner warmth that will catch us. I know there is a lot of cruelty in the world, but I can also promise that something pure exists. In the substrates there is a lot of sorrow, but it is also our true nature. Even small things, like having done something meaningful for others, are all eternal. I know life might seem lonely, but ultimately everyone pays the price for this. Love does exists, but for some reason God hides the divine. Only in sorrow, there is true freedom.
