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What's preventing you from roping, boyos? A hobby? Family? Friends? Pets? Something else? Talk to me. I want to know what you guys have going for you in your lives that distracts you from your inceldom. At this point, I don't have much. It feels like all I do is work and sleep, and I don't even do much of the latter. I have two jobs (nothing special- I'm basically a glorified dishwasher) and work a minimum of 65 hours a week. I want to do something with what little free time I have, especially since I've been heavily considering dropping one of my aforementioned jobs...
Before I started working as much as I do now, I really only had two hobbies. I played video games and wrote/produced music on my computer. I eventually fell out of music production and spent all of my free time (eg: time not sleeping or working a part-time minimum-wager) playing video games until my eyes dried out while drinking myself into a state of certain retardation. Even that became stale after some time. After a recent mental collapse, I've been searching for something to remove myself from my inceldom- something to identify myself with, that could allow me to feel validated as a human being despite my hardship with women...
Then, recently, seemingly out of nowhere I remembered: I attended a music festival in Boston in the spring with a former work colleague. I had been drinking quite a bit at the time, but on the first day of that festival, I thought of a question she had asked me sometime prior: "What do you really want to do with your life?" I asked her if she remembered asking me that question. She said, yes. I pointed to the band playing (horribly, tbh, I thought they sucked) onstage and said, "that. That's what I want to do."
Even when I was only producing (mostly electronic style) music, I'd had these fantasies of performing for a crowd. I had so many thoughts and feelings that I wanted to mold into songs that were not only therapeutic for myself, but could also be for other people. Music was a route of escape from the pain I'd endured throughout my lifetime. There's very little music I've heard that I didn't like, but as of the last few years, I feel as though the rock genre has stolen my heart. I've long fantasized about being an ace guitarist, but never felt the desire to pursue it until recently. I just bought a cheap acoustic-electric starter guitar and will begin my lessons tomorrow. I can't express to you guys how excited and relieved I am to finally have something both fun and practical that will pull me away from my pain and frustration as an incel. I strongly doubt that I'll get anywhere with this, professionally, but it will give me something to do with my free time that might actually be worth a damn, instead of getting drunk and shooting "bad guys."
So, what's your story? What do you do? Why did you choose to do it over other things? What, besides women, makes you tick?
Before I started working as much as I do now, I really only had two hobbies. I played video games and wrote/produced music on my computer. I eventually fell out of music production and spent all of my free time (eg: time not sleeping or working a part-time minimum-wager) playing video games until my eyes dried out while drinking myself into a state of certain retardation. Even that became stale after some time. After a recent mental collapse, I've been searching for something to remove myself from my inceldom- something to identify myself with, that could allow me to feel validated as a human being despite my hardship with women...
Then, recently, seemingly out of nowhere I remembered: I attended a music festival in Boston in the spring with a former work colleague. I had been drinking quite a bit at the time, but on the first day of that festival, I thought of a question she had asked me sometime prior: "What do you really want to do with your life?" I asked her if she remembered asking me that question. She said, yes. I pointed to the band playing (horribly, tbh, I thought they sucked) onstage and said, "that. That's what I want to do."
Even when I was only producing (mostly electronic style) music, I'd had these fantasies of performing for a crowd. I had so many thoughts and feelings that I wanted to mold into songs that were not only therapeutic for myself, but could also be for other people. Music was a route of escape from the pain I'd endured throughout my lifetime. There's very little music I've heard that I didn't like, but as of the last few years, I feel as though the rock genre has stolen my heart. I've long fantasized about being an ace guitarist, but never felt the desire to pursue it until recently. I just bought a cheap acoustic-electric starter guitar and will begin my lessons tomorrow. I can't express to you guys how excited and relieved I am to finally have something both fun and practical that will pull me away from my pain and frustration as an incel. I strongly doubt that I'll get anywhere with this, professionally, but it will give me something to do with my free time that might actually be worth a damn, instead of getting drunk and shooting "bad guys."
So, what's your story? What do you do? Why did you choose to do it over other things? What, besides women, makes you tick?
