Blackpill Last Night Was Really Hard For Me

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I had been drinking a lot, and I decided to rant to my microphone. I guess my parents overheard me ranting and they found out I had been drinking.

They sat me down and we started talking about god and religion. (I posted an audio clip earlier of the situation)

My life is going nowhere man. I'm so tired of being miserable everyday, and I get no comfort in anything I do. I want so badly for something to change so that I don't feel this anymore, but the damage has already been done.

I just broke down and started crying earlier because the pain was getting too much. I just feel like a helpless mentally ill child.

I don't think I'll ever be okay, and that genuinely scares me. I just feel like a broken defeated deformity.

There is no chance for my life to get better because I don't have the strength to try. And I don't have the strength to find something to try for.

I just don't understand why I'm going through all this. There's so much pain. I can't even sleep because I can't rest my mind from the constant thoughts buzzing in my head. I'm stressing over my life beyond what's necessary.

I'm just a broken mess of a human being. A failure in every sense of the word. And now I've cast myself into this endless pursuit of nothing, and I can't climb out of it.

 

[Stupid Clown]

Brutal

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Also this has nothing to do with the election or what's currently going on in the world. I just have a lot I'm going through at the moment.

A failure to launch is really how I would describe my life.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Brutal

Yeah, it's really quite awful. I don't get any meaning out of it either, so it all feels like it's for nothing.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I'm just gonna lay in bed and try to drink some water. I have a terrible hangover rn. I drank way too much last night.

 

[McFlurryCel]

dnr

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

dnr

Same tbh

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

I had been drinking a lot, and I decided to rant to my microphone. I guess my parents overheard me ranting and they found out I had been drinking.

They sat me down and we started talking about god and religion. (I posted an audio clip earlier of the situation)

My life is going nowhere man. I'm so tired of being miserable everyday, and I get no comfort in anything I do. I want so badly for something to change so that I don't feel this anymore, but the damage has already been done.

I just broke down and started crying earlier because the pain was getting too much. I just feel like a helpless mentally ill child.

I don't think I'll ever be okay, and that genuinely scares me. I just feel like a broken defeated deformity.

There is no chance for my life to get better because I don't have the strength to try. And I don't have the strength to find something to try for.

I just don't understand why I'm going through all this. There's so much pain. I can't even sleep because I can't rest my mind from the constant thoughts buzzing in my head. I'm stressing over my life beyond what's necessary.

I'm just a broken mess of a human being. A failure in every sense of the word. And now I've cast myself into this endless pursuit of nothing, and I can't climb out of it.

Dnr

 

[SubhumanGamer]

... sorry that happened to you brother

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

... sorry that happened to you brother

It's all good brother. I'm really grateful that you guys take the time to read what I have to say.

Please don't turn out like me, you guys deserve better.

 

[Myst]

sorry brother you dont deserve this shit

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

sorry brother you dont deserve this shit

Thanks man

I'll be okay

You guys don't deserve this either. I hope you all get out of this somehow.

 

[Myst]

It's all good brother. I'm really grateful that you guys take the time to read what I have to say.

Please don't turn out like me, you guys deserve better.

 

[Myst]

Thanks man

I'll be okay

You guys don't deserve this either. I hope you all get out of this somehow.

really hope things get better for you man

it's always the good people who suffer for no reason

 

[HamburglarCel]

My condolences boyo.

Getting to the point where you just start breaking down crying is very very brutal.

If u ever wanna vent to someone then I'll listen to you mang

 

[Grodd]

Sorry this is happening brocel this world is so cruel to us

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

My condolences boyo.

Getting to the point where you just start breaking down crying is very very brutal.

If u ever wanna vent to someone then I'll listen to you mang

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Thank you fren
I'm always here for you guys too if you ever need anything.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

really hope things get better for you man

it's always the good people who suffer for no reason

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[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Sorry this is happening brocel this world is so cruel to us
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Thank you Brother
I'm so lucky to have you guys in my life. I wish you guys knew how much you mean to me.

 

[To koniec]

Today, i cried too about my shit life i thought about girl which i loved but obviously rejected me, sometimes i break down crying without bigger reason

keep going strong bro, at least think how many trannies will kill themself due to trump win now !

 

[Grodd]

Thank you Brother
I'm so lucky to have you guys in my life. I wish you guys knew how much you mean to me.
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You mean alot to us too brother

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Today, i cried too about my shit life i thought about girl which i loved but obviously rejected me, sometimes i break down crying without bigger reason

keep going strong bro, at least think how many trannies will kill themself due to trump win now !

total tranny death

 

[WorthlessSlavicShit]

Sad to read, hope for the best for you brocel.

 

[Scatius Deletus]

Brutal

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Sad to read, hope for the best for you brocel.

Thank you brocel

And to you as well

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Brutal

Ye

 

[DarkStar]

Brutal man, that's fucking awful

Our parents will never truly understand our issues, since we're just on another wavelength & frequency

I also, feel how you said: Like a broken, mentally ill child. I feel so lost, with no one to guide me, and also with tons of things from my past shackled to me, weighing me down in the process.

Like you, I just know that even if I ascend, I'll never truly be ok due to how I was damaged & broken beyond repair in my teen years.

I also hate the "muh everything happens for a reason" ok, so I take it every foid gets raped for a reason then.

 

[SuperKanga.Belgrade]

Brutal man, that's fucking awful

Our parents will never truly understand our issues, since we're just on another wavelength & frequency

I also, feel how you said: Like a broken, mentally ill child. I feel so lost, with no one to guide me, and also with tons of things from my past shackled to me, weighing me down in the process.

Like you, I just know that even if I ascend, I'll never truly be ok due to how I was damaged & broken beyond repair in my teen years.

I also hate the "muh everything happens for a reason" ok, so I take it every foid gets raped for a reason then.

Thank you for understanding Saar

Yeah, the way we view the world is completely different from their own.

It sucks that you're able to relate with me, you deserve better then this brocel.

All we can really do is adapt to our circumstances and try to survive without our needs being met.

Maslow would be rolling in his grave if he saw how bad things have gotten.

There really is no cope that can keep us going other then our intrinsic desire to survive.

 

[DarkStar]

Thank you for understanding Saar

Yeah, the way we view the world is completely different from their own.

100%

Our worldview is color-coded so different to theirs

It sucks that you're able to relate with me, you deserve better then this brocel.

Thanks man, is there any reason why you think such?

All we can really do is adapt to our circumstances and try to survive without our needs being met.

Maslow would be rolling in his grave if he saw how bad things have gotten.

He'd advocate for nuking this gay world

There really is no cope that can keep us going other then our intrinsic desire to survive.

This, 100%

Everything I believe & do is a result of this

 

[RechargedSamsung]

Brutal man i really hope music can get you to a better place idk what u have going on personally but i really hope shits goes well for you man

But hey you doing pretty fucking good with your soundcloud with having one if ur songs hitting 30k listeners and having nearly 1k likes youre doing better than me and most other “underground” musicians i’ve been listening to who have been averaging 10 listeners for 7/8 years and with you barely releasing ur music this year and having a slight big growth doing better than most other people in that category haha i would fucking kill to have a singing voice i would’ve musicmaxxed and experimented with lsd so i couldve made some really levitating music but srsly mang ur musics been a good fucking cope for me

I too feel that way when it’s just a repeating cycle and whenever i ask my family that i’ve been feeling this constant boredom and apathy plus i tell them that shit feels the same nothing is really interesting they just tell me to get new hobbies just meme tier advice i’ve tried new thing and whenever i do shit gets boring quick i can get a job and hate it or i can neet and fucking hate being home its a loose loose situation for me i was looking forward to the election now that’s gone i’m bored but seeing foids seethe has been interesting lately but nothing much else has happened im just neeting in my dorm