kILLED myself almost today...

[Incel_Dikshit]

I notice that i get called ugly more often lately.
My friends or the people i know will say this indirect as ‘jokes’ or straight up.
Yesterday i cried myself to sleep about my looks/datinglife/sociallife in my room.
Today i gave up... 
I had a bad dream that i was eated allive by maggots.
I woke up sweaty and in shock (06:30) i went to the bathroom to drink some water.
Looked in the mirror and felt suddenly dizzy/sick only by looking at my face.
I threw up and i woke my mom she was really worried she saw that i was crying and asked if anything is okay. 
I said that it is no bigdeal and went to my room.
I grapped my scarf from the closet and strangled myself with it around my neck.
I almost lost my conscious and strength.
Suddenly my mom came in to bring some medicine and she saw me standing there with a scarf around my neck trying to choke myself to death.
She inmiddiatly jumped in she Was in shock and cried at the same time.
I stopped, choughed and I was gasping for air.
She is probably going to take me to a psychiatric. But since today i feel really awkward around my parents. I never mentioned something about my datinglife or the blackpill for that matter.
They worried af they keep asking me questions like WHY?
I get that they dont want to lose their son, but my life is hell.
I have no one to understand my problems only you guys.
I feel really bad for my parents that it has to go this way. But its only a matter of time tbh.
I dont know what to do.... 
life has no meaning i wake up switch between blackpill forums, i remind myself constantly about my subhuman face cry a bit and then go to sleep.

 

[Harvey_Weinstein_Hero]

venting is good, please continue. I feel your pain. One day it will all be alright.

 

[lostcel]

choking yourself with a scarf? surely you knew that wasnt gonna work, sounds like you still have hope. If i were you i would hold on to that hope tbh dont end it yet you might one day crawl out of this dark hole and will regret doing permanent damage to your body. I know theres nothing i can say that will make you feel better that is obvious, but i wouldnt let go just yet. Plus it sounds like you have parents that really care about you.

TLDR: Dont end it

 

[ArtoriasWolf]

I really wish looks were not important, but they are they are.

 

[anincelforlifelol]

Honestly boyo, you live on the East Coast? Let's end it together. This fucking world is draining.

 

[RichCel]

You are an attention-seeking moron. Enjoy getting fucked over by psychiatry. If your parents get you in treatment (vol or invol), it won't do jack shit, but it WILL leave a permanent mark on your health records (say goodbye to some jobs and some rights, like buying a gun).

You obviously weren't really go through with it (I mean, self-strangulation with a scarf?). So WTF did you do it for?

 

[Reddit_is_for_cucks]

Tell your parents to give you a surgery for a jaw and clear skin.
Do it before they change their mind. This is your chance to escape

 

[Deleted member 1983]

Unlikely your parents will understand my Mother still sometimes cant fathom how ive never had a gf at 21. Like holy shit look at me im ugly af!

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You are an attention-seeking moron. Enjoy getting fucked over by psychiatry. If your parents get you in treatment (vol or invol), it won't do jack shit, but it WILL leave a permanent mark on your health records (say goodbye to some jobs and some rights, like buying a gun).

You obviously weren't really go through with it (I mean, self-strangulation with a scarf?). So WTF did you do it for?

Stop being a piece of shit.

 

[KyloRen]

Tell em to get you facial surgery, and a gym membership.

 

[Deleted member 1783]

Honestly boyo, you live on the East Coast? Let's end it together. This fucking world is draining.

ME TOO

which state

wanna have a threesome before we die? no homo tho

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You are an attention-seeking moron. Enjoy getting fucked over by psychiatry. If your parents get you in treatment (vol or invol), it won't do jack shit, but it WILL leave a permanent mark on your health records (say goodbye to some jobs and some rights, like buying a gun).

You obviously weren't really go through with it (I mean, self-strangulation with a scarf?). So WTF did you do it for?

main reason why i never want to go to therapy/get diagnosed with some shit: losing gun rights forevER

 

[DankIncel]

If you really love your parents wait tell they die. And then consider the rope.
At least you'd have a purpose to live for. Live for the parents that love you.

 

[undeadcel]

You are not alone, Im going through the same. Its hell

 

[Deleted member 1627]

I grapped my scarf from the closet and strangled myself with it around my neck.

LOL You srsly thought that would work

 

[BlaKdaGGeRz]

lol dude cmon, you have to communicate with your parents thats a bit tragic if they don't even know you are suffering so much. U make me wanna cry.... PM me pics if you are comfortable, I want to see if u are actually ugly. That sucks though.... but honestly theres lots of copes left in the world like video games and whatever.

 

[RREEEEEEEEE]

I'm glad you didn't end your life, buddy.

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Also pm me pics of yourself, I want to see if you're actually ugly. I get called ugly all the time but in my case it's true. Also no luck with grills so I've been all alone my whole life. I can tell if you're ugly or mentalcel.