This is the first year I have gone through my inceldom of being fully blackpilled. I become blackpilled around 16 3/4 years old but this is the first time I have stuck to this ideology for an entire year and just observed the insane amount of blackpill truths that were right in front of me that I could not have seen before. From the outside people think im doing good, I have been academically successful now in Uni (skipped a year Curry parents go figure), seemingly normal house life, and a decent socioeconomic background. But this entire year I have just been a rotting bag of flesh observing the cruel reality of this world. I am almost definitely non-NT (past trauma and health issues) and ofc im shitskin so no need for me to tell you how bad the death sentence has been. I constantly torture myself everyday looking and searching for something I will never have, I have turned to gymceling the last 2 years and especially the last year since I was blackpilled (jfl no gym for your race), I cannot fathom another year going by and the insane suifuel I see at uni compared to highschool.
