Story Just experienced a sudden overwhelming amount of loneliness

[FiveFourManlet]

I think my depression is getting to another level and I should start with pills.

I really don’t want to do anything stupid so I think that is the best option for the time being, until a find something else.

If you were wondering, I was listening to music (normal upbeat, not sad shit) and all of a sudden I just felt completely lonely like I have never felt before, I mean I am lonely everyday, but this was something else, truly eyeopening.

I managed to listen to aggressive music to the point where I got extremely angry with myself and then managed to cry it out, I feel slightly better, still pretty much the same but just a slight change in mood.

This was again, truly eye opening and weird, it was almost like a mini panic attack mixed with extreme loneliness and all at the same time.

I am trying to think why it was triggered, and I do remember being death mogged by a 12-13 ish looking girl on the bus today, height and framemogged. Maybe that’s what triggered it later on, no idea.

Either way, I am so deep in this depression hole, I am not sure if anything can help me except pills and even then, pills don’t always work...

It is truly over...

 

[SadRealistcel]

music? link? i need to listen to that shit tbh

 

[UglyHikikomori]

For men, depression is a result of being mogged IRL or online.

 

[FiveFourManlet]

music? link? i need to listen to that shit tbh

Chicago drill music got me aggressive and able to cry.
Sad music just fucking annoys me.

 

[SadRealistcel]

Chicago drill music got me aggressive and able to cry.
Sad music just fucking annoys me.

ya i dont like sad music because its always some whiney chad or stacy

 

[Gyros_Pretcel]

Being height- and framemogged by a women must be the worst. I am just a bit taller than my mom (2 inch) and she framemogs me to oblivion.

Had this before sometimes. It is almost like some kind of negative ascension or epiphany. I am lucky that my brainfog and unsteady emotion wipes it away kinda fast though. I usually get this in association with cultural stuff as well.

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Saudade
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Mono_no_aware

Do the descriptions of the wikipedia articles feel familiar to you or is it really pure lonliness? For me it was usually a more of a combination.

 

[XanaxFanax]

For men, depression is a result of being mogged IRL or online.

I get heightmogged and framemogged evrry fucking day here in NYC its so depressing. Probably Wealthmogged too since im living with 3 other roommates to afford rent while working full time at a WageCuck job.

 

[FiveFourManlet]

Being height- and framemogged by a women must be the worst. I am just a bit taller than my mom (2 inch) and she framemogs me to oblivion.

Especially if it is by a 12 year old girl.

 

[NEETAndTidy]

Yeah try getting on pills m8. They help me a bit.

 

[FiveFourManlet]

Yeah try getting on pills m8. They help me a bit.

What are they like?
Apparently they turn you into a zombie

 

[maynarde]

I think my depression is getting to another level and I should start with pills.

I really don’t want to do anything stupid so I think that is the best option for the time being, until a find something else.

If you were wondering, I was listening to music (normal upbeat, not sad shit) and all of a sudden I just felt completely lonely like I have never felt before, I mean I am lonely everyday, but this was something else, truly eyeopening.

I managed to listen to aggressive music to the point where I got extremely angry with myself and then managed to cry it out, I feel slightly better, still pretty much the same but just a slight change in mood.

This was again, truly eye opening and weird, it was almost like a mini panic attack mixed with extreme loneliness and all at the same time.

I am trying to think why it was triggered, and I do remember being death mogged by a 12-13 ish looking girl on the bus today, height and framemogged. Maybe that’s what triggered it later on, no idea.

Either way, I am so deep in this depression hole, I am not sure if anything can help me except pills and even then, pills don’t always work...

It is truly over...

Seek out a family member

 

[NEETAndTidy]

What are they like?
Apparently they turn you into a zombie

I was on like 6 before I found a good one.
All mine do is kinda numb my depression and anxiety. The only ones that make you a zombie are powerful SSRIs and anti psychotics. Basically

 

[mentalcel]

That moment when you think if you would die now how many months would it take someone to find you. This came to my mind after being after being 7 days straight home and started to get cramps on my abdomen after eating some spoiled food and my phone battery being dead.

 

[Segregated]

If worse comes to worse, pills is your only option. But maybe hold back for now.

 

[ColdLightOfDay]

Chicago drill music got me aggressive and able to cry.
Sad music just fucking annoys me.

You should listen to old school blues, some say it’s dated, but who can believe sad music sung by prissy popstars who don’t know what true suffering is?

Sad music should be sung by old guys who know what they’re talking about and worked 11 hours 6 days a week for jack shit. You can truly feel the pain and that’s why I like it. Muddy Waters is a good place to start.

 

[FiveFourManlet]

Seek out a family member

I don’t have a very good relationship with them