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I am a fucking 32 year old virgin.
I went to the mall to just walk around and buy anything I felt like that wasn't too expensive (ended up getting some food at a grocery store). I thought it'd help me relax because I'm trying to cope with withdrawal from benzos.
What ended up happening is that I got back home wanting to fucking rope. Beautiful women, or even just normal women who would be a dream to have as a gf, all over, couples having dinner, ugly guys with girlfriends somehow while I have nothing . It was an expensive mall and those people were well dressed and looking like they have good lives.
I was thinking. Imagine a normal day of having a girlfriend. You wake up next to her or if she lives separately, grab your phone and talk to her. And later just have dinner with her at home or at some restaurant, like those couples. Sounds like heaven for me. I just had to be surrounded by the thing that I desire the most and by people having the life I desire, only go get back home alone
I went to the mall to just walk around and buy anything I felt like that wasn't too expensive (ended up getting some food at a grocery store). I thought it'd help me relax because I'm trying to cope with withdrawal from benzos.
What ended up happening is that I got back home wanting to fucking rope. Beautiful women, or even just normal women who would be a dream to have as a gf, all over, couples having dinner, ugly guys with girlfriends somehow while I have nothing . It was an expensive mall and those people were well dressed and looking like they have good lives.
I was thinking. Imagine a normal day of having a girlfriend. You wake up next to her or if she lives separately, grab your phone and talk to her. And later just have dinner with her at home or at some restaurant, like those couples. Sounds like heaven for me. I just had to be surrounded by the thing that I desire the most and by people having the life I desire, only go get back home alone