I've been an underachiever since i can remember myself and all these negative expierence led me to this forum. And while some older users have repeatedly expressed opinion that youngcels cannot officially declare themselves as incels due to being underage, i've always been painfully aware that i stumbled upon the blackpill community in the first place for a reason and, let me tell you, my life had only gotten worse since then. Not only i failed to ascend, but my realtionship with family, basically the only people who even slightly give a fuck about me, has been on decline lately as well. My stepfather has always treated me like his own son, but because i'm such a retarded good-for-nothing subhuman, i disappointed him to the point when he's encouraging me to move out and settle in his sister's house instead. My mom still loves me, but i'm pretty sure she suspects that there's something fundamentally wrong with her son.
I'm currently attending uni, but i feel like giving up completely and roping, Seriously, i've never been so soaked up by the idea of actually ending my life. It seems like every breath i take is worthless, meaningless, futile. Even if i'd be able to get my degree. it won't be enough, since the job market is utterly fucked where i reside and it won't get better. It sure doesn't help that i'm a khhv at 21 and doomed to never expierence female affection.
My childhood friends have surpassed me in every conceivable metric and, ever since we've graduated from hs, they've managed to make new connections and expand their social circle, while i've only grown even more resentful and depressed.
The only thing i could be proud of is the way my political views have evolved throughout teeenagehood, but it's so useless as an achievement and only recognized by very few individuals. Meanwhile in the eyes of my peers i'm just your regular ugly non-nt nolifer.
Fuck this life man. It's so over.
I'm currently attending uni, but i feel like giving up completely and roping, Seriously, i've never been so soaked up by the idea of actually ending my life. It seems like every breath i take is worthless, meaningless, futile. Even if i'd be able to get my degree. it won't be enough, since the job market is utterly fucked where i reside and it won't get better. It sure doesn't help that i'm a khhv at 21 and doomed to never expierence female affection.
My childhood friends have surpassed me in every conceivable metric and, ever since we've graduated from hs, they've managed to make new connections and expand their social circle, while i've only grown even more resentful and depressed.
The only thing i could be proud of is the way my political views have evolved throughout teeenagehood, but it's so useless as an achievement and only recognized by very few individuals. Meanwhile in the eyes of my peers i'm just your regular ugly non-nt nolifer.
Fuck this life man. It's so over.
