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There comes a time when one has been so completely traumatized that they no longer have much facial expression.
No matter how they feel inside, it is just a blank stare. Face showing no emotion.
Several therapists have commented that I have flat affect.
They say it’s from my schizophrenia.
But it’s not.
It is from a lifetime of hell.
I seldom laugh, I rarely smile.
I seldom look sad, I rarely look angry.
This is the look I have on my face when I walk around town.
Seeing couples in cars as they drove by.
Seeing couples walk together.
Seeing couples shopping together at the store.
Or just a beautiful foid by herself.
But, what do I feel inside?
An emotional storm.
A great earthquake in my mind.
Like a ship at sea blown around in a hurricane.
No matter how they feel inside, it is just a blank stare. Face showing no emotion.
Several therapists have commented that I have flat affect.
They say it’s from my schizophrenia.
But it’s not.
It is from a lifetime of hell.
I seldom laugh, I rarely smile.
I seldom look sad, I rarely look angry.
This is the look I have on my face when I walk around town.
Seeing couples in cars as they drove by.
Seeing couples walk together.
Seeing couples shopping together at the store.
Or just a beautiful foid by herself.
But, what do I feel inside?
An emotional storm.
A great earthquake in my mind.
Like a ship at sea blown around in a hurricane.
