SuicideFuel I've spent more than 10 years of my life in front of a computer screen

[dOOmerbOI]

I blame my parents. Yes I do. For letting me having access to internet and consoles from a very young age. I was condemned to live in inceldom since then.
I could have been encouraged to socialize and build quality relationships. But NO!! FUCK YOU!! LITTLE TRASH!!. you will spend all your free time at home!! While we are going to work for days without seeing you!! Yes. My parents were working the entire time without paying me attention.

They just bought me a Nintendo Ds, a PSP, later a PS3, and then I switched out completely to a PC. I was addicted to videogames since I was 6 years old. My father played old Need for speed and Halo CE on an old computer and I loved watching him play.

Then came pornography. I discovered it at 10 years old. I became addicted at 12.

My parents never monitored my internet or TV consumption.

I spent my entire childhood inside my house. While I was abused at school for not having proper developed social skills (I talked about this in my older posts), and I also had very bad and neglectful teachers. All of this combined made fail plenty of times at school.

What my parents did was even worse. They beat my with a belt after this. I developed symptoms of hysteria, social anxiety and depression from a verly young age. I was harming myself as early as 12. I developed suicidal thoughts. My only cope was always the PC.

More recently I also had symptoms of Derealization.

And my parents never took me to a proper therapist. I got addicted watching extreme sex and gore videos on the internet since my 15s.

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You are thinking right now. Well it's bad, but this can't get worse right?

Oh boy...

I started balding at 17. You can imagine how bad was I. No need for more details.
But thank god I started taking pills a year ago, and now I look somewhat decent. Looksmaxxing is legit.

Many cels on this forum told me not having parents is worse or truecel. I disagree because growing up without parents makes you strong and mentally disciplined from a early young age. Having passive/neglectful parents is much worse than having no parents at all.

As a high tier normie in looks I could have easily ascended with enough personal care and social activities but no. What you got is a borderline autistic son obsessed with conspiracy theories on the internet.

 

[Incelius Savage]

Same but the last part about being attractive.


You can still ascend if you’re a chad.

Jfl @Zer0/∞


Also atleast u went to school and had the opportunity. I was taken out and ignored by my family.

 

[dOOmerbOI]

Same but the last part about being attractive.


You can still ascend if you’re a chad.

Jfl @Zer0/∞


Also atleast u went to school and had the opportunity. I was taken out and ignored by my family.

Depends on how mentally crippled you are. A Chad who doesn't even go outside is still an incel.

 

[Incelius Savage]

Depends on how mentally crippled you are. A Chad who doesn't even go outside is still an incel.

But u go to school man it’s not like you’re socially isolated as bad as i am. I’ve grown to be ok with it.

 

[dOOmerbOI]

But u go to school man

Because I was forced to. I did not enjoy it. Never did.

 

[NorthernWind]

Spend 28 years of my life reading books and then browsing internet.
My eye area is beyond damaged.

 

[NorthernWind]

Of course I feel strong anger, regret and self-pity. I was womanizer inside probably due to genes, but my sub humanity prevented me from attaining my wishes. Maybe it's a punishment from God.

 

[NotoriousLoser]

brutal

 

[jerkjocky]

high tier normie in looks I could have easily ascended with enough personal care and social activities but

Youre severly autistic. Most severe autists are also delusional about their looks with highly inflated egos.

Nobody who looks good would have lived a life like yours. They would have been dragged into social events and lost interest in games and shit.

But keep being delusionql about looks

 

[Izayacel]

Youre severly autistic. Most severe autists are also delusional about their looks with highly inflated egos.

Nobody who looks good would have lived a life like yours. They would have been dragged into social events and lost interest in games and shit.

But keep being delusionql about looks

 

[dOOmerbOI]

Youre severly autistic. Most severe autists are also delusional about their looks with highly inflated egos.

Nobody who looks good would have lived a life like yours. They would have been dragged into social events and lost interest in games and shit.

But keep being delusionql about looks

If I would had an inflated ego I wouldn't have self hating thoughts and depression. I have received compliments on my looks.
Yes. I was bullied for my awkward speech and because at that time I didn't care about myself. In middle school I was always stressed, I couldn't sleep, I was pale, and I didn't even work out. I started looksmaxxing after 18.

They bullied me mostly because I came from Eastern Europe while living in a Southern European country. Compared to others I was very light skinned, blonde and blue eyed. I got plenty of racial slurs against me at that time.

I've been in some social events when I was younger, mostly birthdays. I never liked parties or discos. Specially the ones in this country. Most Gen Zs go to these kind of environments. I rejected many simply because I don't enjoy it. I like drinking but I started prety late.

I have some friends. We usually chat online most of the time. And sometimes go out for a kebab.
One of them is a musician. I went to one of his concerts a couple of years ago. And I was approached by a girl. (This is not bragging btw)

So it's not about my looks. I social situations people do't treat me bad. (compared with an actual truecel). I've read a lot about blackpill science and social behavior. I notice their facial expressions, and nonverbal gestures, most of them smile and are very friendly to me.

The issue starts after I open my mouth. I barely have anything to say. I only talk about philosophy or music I like.

Call me a coper or a liar. I don't care.

 

[jerkjocky]

If I would had an inflated ego I wouldn't have self hating thoughts and depression. I have received compliments on my looks.
Yes. I was bullied for my awkward speech and because at that time I didn't care about myself. In middle school I was always stressed, I couldn't sleep, I was pale, and I didn't even work out. I started looksmaxxing after 18.

They bullied me mostly because I came from Eastern Europe while living in a Southern European country. Compared to others I was very light skinned, blonde and blue eyed. I got plenty of racial slurs against me at that time.

I've been in some social events when I was younger, mostly birthdays. I never liked parties or discos. Specially the ones in this country. Most Gen Zs go to these kind of environments. I rejected many simply because I don't enjoy it. I like drinking but I started prety late.

I have some friends. We usually chat online most of the time. And sometimes go out for a kebab.
One of them is a musician. I went to one of his concerts a couple of years ago. And I was approached by a girl. (This is not bragging btw)

So it's not about my looks. I social situations people do't treat me bad. (compared with an actual truecel). I've read a lot about blackpill science and social behavior. I notice their facial expressions, and nonverbal gestures, most of them smile and are very friendly to me.

The issue starts after I open my mouth. I barely have anything to say. I only talk about philosophy or music I like.

Call me a coper or a liar. I don't care.

Cope more autistic nigger. The fact of the matter is, the one and only reason why people are treated good or bad is their looks. Thats it.

But keep living in your blue/red pill delusional world

 

[dOOmerbOI]

Cope more autistic nigger. The fact of the matter is, the one and only reason why people are treated good or bad is their looks. Thats it.

But keep living in your blue/red pill delusional world

You didn't even read anything I wrote. Absolute Retard

 

[Transcended Trucel]

brutal

 

[Sennacherib]

Trucel trait: you were treated like trash even by your ''parents'',they always beat you up and call you retard and the like when you were a kid

 

[Indari]

many such cases

 

[Unlucky coalition]

my social skills were stunned by my parents as well they barely never let me play outside with other kids i used to have friends in school and they all had freedom to leave their houses and fuck around mines didnt let me when i was older i got invite to parties many times but i was never allowed to go there on those days i had the desire to talk and meet people but when i grown up like this my desire to socialize was neutered and i became a loser sperg that cant socialize

 

[dOOmerbOI]

my social skills were stunned by my parents as well they barely never let me play outside with other kids i used to have friends in school and they all had freedom to leave their houses and fuck around mines didnt let me when i was older i got invite to parties many times but i was never allowed to go there on those days i had the desire to talk and meet people but when i grown up like this my desire to socialize was neutered and i became a loser sperg that cant socialize

Same. But I grew up as an immigrant in a neighborhood without kids. And I could only contact the few friends I had by train or car.
I dont even go outside anymore. Its so over.

 

[rottingricecel]

'mentalcels' should be banned and they can go out and touch grass

 

[RealSchizo]

I grew up in a low-income family with my sister,mother and grandma so I never had the comforts that you had but I can tell you one thing I would've probably ended up worse than you if I had them. I only had pornography and Youtube addiction the only games I used to play were cs 1.6 and SAMP. I was interested in football but kids used to bully me and I eventually stopped going out with them because their words used to hurt me a lot. I was actually seething every single day for not having a good laptop/PC to run the games I wanted to play but now I actually realize that it was beter this way. Oh, also my laptop used to turn itself off at random moments which made me even angrier.

 

[PastillaNegra]

My parents never monitored my internet or TV consumption.

This, back in middle school i used to get invited to a few social events but i was so addicted that i'd stay home and refuse to go to them , i literally never went outside, sometimes i even skipped school cus of my addiction by pretending to be sick , and my neglectful lowiq mom will believe me. She knew i was addicted, but did nothing , sometimes i used to stay up till 4 am on school nights playing videogames and she wouldnt really care .
Now here i am , rotting in this site and non-nt, with 0 social skills . By 16 the addiction stopped kinda but it was already too late ,