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Saw an IG post tonight from a chick in our uni class. It's a video and picture montage of her and a bunch of her friends going on a trip together. All the cool, memorable moments they shared. All the fun things they've experienced... all the moments, captured.
Depressed me so much I didn't even wanna post it here.
It dawned on me again. There used to be a time when I would look at these things and cope by believing that I wasn't missing out on anything because I was, "focusing on myself". Well that wasn't wrong, I was, and I still am. But I'm painfully aware of what I'm missing out on and the fact that I'm forced to do this. This isn't even about just the sex, these people are actually living. Yeah I have my copes, yeah I go mountain climbing or this and that. But never like this. NevER surrounded by people (let alone foids) my age who actually accept me.
I was never one of them. The people who experienced these things. I had hope that things would change in uni. Things DID change, only for the worst.
I'll post a follow-up thread probably.
Depressed me so much I didn't even wanna post it here.
It dawned on me again. There used to be a time when I would look at these things and cope by believing that I wasn't missing out on anything because I was, "focusing on myself". Well that wasn't wrong, I was, and I still am. But I'm painfully aware of what I'm missing out on and the fact that I'm forced to do this. This isn't even about just the sex, these people are actually living. Yeah I have my copes, yeah I go mountain climbing or this and that. But never like this. NevER surrounded by people (let alone foids) my age who actually accept me.
I was never one of them. The people who experienced these things. I had hope that things would change in uni. Things DID change, only for the worst.
I'll post a follow-up thread probably.